it was brought to my attention that the Old Cowboy's endlife stuff might be Private.  So I thought about all that, all day as i was there AGAIN all day….and i thought about how he so easily tells his story to anyone at all that is willing to listen

 

all of Us,  no matter where we are on the continuum,  are dealing with or going to deal with      END LIFE stuff.   if we have partners,  someone is going to go first.  Parents,  they will go first.   so…All of Us.  and sometime it will be US that is in the going line.  Why should this be private?   I think.

 

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This is August.  Last  year.  How similar to this present cloth.  August.  The month, for me,  since childhood of birth/death/birth/death/birth\/

today we got a hospital bed delivered.  It's IN PLACE in the livingroom.   Today we got Eddie,  who will spend nights.   Keep track of stuff when it all goes into disarray.  Already, we love Eddie.

I love Eddie so much because he  means that i can sit on the porch in the evening or i can go out and sing to the Goats in the evening or i can hold Tay close in the evening and talk to her in the nonsense language that she likes and understands.  

Old Cowboy will love Eddie because he is there.  When the gremlins come,  Eddie will be there.

 

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18 responses to “Endlife stuff. Private? or, about Us.”

  1. deb lacativa Avatar

    I loved Lane. Lane came in the night to help when I needed help. He was calm and efficient and respectful and loving. And I never got to thank him.

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    i ll understand , goïng to the otherside of life is no private , it helps us to go on with that change of living , look to the sun flower she show us her face , Oooo i love august and septembre and octobre the period of harvest , the smell of the land , the morning dew the evening mist/fog.
    The transition periode even in live can be so beauty – full
    i wish the Old Cowboy peace and love

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  3. Michelle in NYC Avatar

    End life–useful to share. Helpful because we all touch that edge. Happy to hear Eddie is in place, that you will have time for yourself and the loving quiet so needed evenings. Best sunflower ever! Ah, nice to see August again. I loved having her for awhile last year, taking her with me to Massachusetts then home here. She looks good.
    Here comes August, but first the full moon…a blue moon too.

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  4. Nancy Krampf Avatar
    Nancy Krampf

    so good to hear you have help, the sheer amount of self one must give
    to help the dying is a deep well of strength few know or have.
    by sharing your story you help us with understanding and honesty.
    om, dear one

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  5. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    So happy for you for the OCB …..sounds like much needed peace all around. August…Blue Moon…..Sunflower in full bloom….another season coming to an end. I LOVE…LOVE..LOVE the seasons!!! The long Wisconsin winter maybe not so much….but I don’t have to think about that today!!

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  6. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    grace, thank you for taking us back to last august. . .every year I come into a newer or slightly deeper understanding of season and what it holds for all of us. you share the end of life stuff with the living, growing stuff, in a very human and humane way. . .telling the truth of it and it is all correct for those who have traveled with you for a while. these words on August hit home today as well: http://www.beyondthefieldsweknow.org/2015/07/friday-ramble-before-lughnasadh.html
    harvest and vegetation, dying and rising. . .love,

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  7. Els Avatar

    a lot of times life goes like “ouch”
    It’s great to have someone in the End …
    But, sunny side up says the sunflower !

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  8. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    It is evening…..I’m imagining you on your porch…or maybe singing to the goats… just doing something that is making YOU happy!!!!

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes, Maria, it’s the transition, the going on, the
    loving and the letting go. So much it is work for the end time
    and very very beauty full

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    Eddie is gone. only one night. but what it took to have that
    happen is good.

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    Nancy…thank you…for validating the sharing. I think it’s
    important because in someway it touches us all, if not now,
    soon

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    no….to not think Winter in these days now as they Gift
    themselves with such Energy and Joy. Time enough later for
    the quiet of Winter
    xoxo

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    i love the link, Jan. I remember this blog from long before
    spirit cloth
    she wanders…

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar

    the SunFlower helps me know how to be “someone in the End”

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    every evening now, no matter the day
    ending on the porch
    with soft soundings

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