windthread

to get to where i got to in the last post,  i realized today,  what i was doing,  without realizing it,  was that technique of Eugene T. Gendlin's….Focusing.   A book by the same name, from 1978.  Asking,  being with what comes until the Felt Sense.

There is a peacefulness now,  and also  some kind of heightened sensitivity to Everything.  I am still spending a lot of time just being OutSide,  like it was when they were here.  Sometimes sitting but more often squatting,  gazing.   and to admit,  sometimes Willing that snake to return.  I want the snake to return.   

OutSide, at night,  long.

the cucumbers are finally coming in.  I am so grateful.

We made things with Sculpey when they were here.  I made Snowbunny.   I think she might have cancer.   I'll send this to Julian on his birthday in October.  I make the marks,  a little  at a time,  going out to look at her….say,   right cheek….and coming in to make the marks.   or her ears

and today,  finally,  Back to Cloth.   How this feels.  Back to Cloth.  yes.