there is an Urge,  both individually and collectively to  "normalize"…that's the word being used…

normalize

and to me this means try to place a Filter on How Things Now Are that softens it,  that is full of the wish that it will all somehow come out ok,  enough,  so that nothing really is drastically changed from what we are used to.   And if this turns out to be true then it will be a time of Great Celebration for me.  But if i am honest,  i don't expect that.

So i am just looking at ways that might work to stay in place as it all unfolds.  To keep some kind of personal equilibrium and in time,  come up with a Plan for how to live.   Nothing really will change probably,  i think,  in my own space here where i live.  We are rural and we are Small.  Things will go on as usual, probably.  I doubt that anyone is going to come for all the undocumented here, of which there are many.  I'm thinking, probably,  we are Under the Radar.  I am thinking that the students, Graduate students at the college in town,  New Mexico Mining and Tech that are from "those" countries will continue here as they have.  Probably.  That no one will be inclined to be unkind to them.  Probably.

So if Probably holds,  i am going to go here for the Next While

 

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it came today.  Published this year,  but of course,  before What Happened,  Happened.   I had mentioned him the other day…that book ,  the Culture of Make Believe that describes exactly what is happening now.   He is not easy reading.  He is Hard Reading.  And there are the others he wrote…Endgame I and II,  Language Older Than Words,  Deep Green Resistance,  and As The World Burns.   "holds degrees in creative writing and mineral engineering physics"  "considered by many to be the philosopher poet of the environmental movement"  so i am going INTO this book for now.  My love for Humanity is great,  but my love for the Planet is First.  No Planet,  No Humanity.   Murder Planet,  live consequence.

so i LOVE you all but stuff is not "normalizing" here.  Stuff is torn and bleeding and so so stunned.  and tho stuff will just go,  because there is Sun Rise and Sun Set and Goats and Dog and Cat and lizards hunkering down for the Cold Time and Birds and Toads and all manner of Insects and Micro Organisms,  Plant People,  Wind, Sky,  earth and earth and Earth….,  there's no room in my mind and heart for normalizing,  but time to take a stand.  Whatever that might come to be.

 

 

 

 

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18 responses to “Probably”

  1. Kim Avatar
    Kim

    A song on the end of the world – Czeslaw Milosz
    It’s been on my mind.

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  2. beth Avatar

    The question keeps coming to me why am I here. Now. In a woman’s body. Of a certain age. In the US. Add to that the possibility that I chose to be in this time and place. It’s been difficult to talk to people but the few women I have talked to since the election have all said they feel the call to do more, to stand up and speak more often. I’m trying to see this as a collective kick in the butt that was needed to move forward. It is so hard to be optimistic though…

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  3. jude Avatar

    I wrote so many things here and then not, so good morning grace, how ever that might happen.

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  4. grace Avatar

    it’s Something, isn’t it…how he put words together
    that give such Image…i need to read it More….
    Thank you, so much

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  5. grace Avatar

    how the moderator said
    everyone’s out of the woodwork now

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  6. grace Avatar

    yes…these wonderings…and at some level it’s a truth…
    that thing the Navajo say when a baby is born…
    “born FOR the ….Clan. not [to] but FOR
    so accepting this…we were/are born FOR this.
    To consider this whether or not it is a personal belief or
    simply a way to consider things and go forward.
    I don’t need optimism right now. Optimism seems like a
    luxury. I need determination. Determination to
    LOVE
    really really “hard”.
    to Love so
    strong.

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  7. grace Avatar

    Good Morning, dear You, Jude Hill

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    soul on deck with shining with deep heart & fierce love

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  9. Acey Avatar
    Acey

    i can only hope you will realise i’m saying this as gently and respectfully as possible: I might suggest rethinking your certainty concerning being under the radar. At least if you’re going to use dog whistle keywords (e.g. uhnn-dockyou. mis-spelling fragment on purpose). We all need to learn the dog whistle list in my opinion and then avoid it like it could hurt us otherwise. because it could. Thinking broad-term and being protective of all the various physical living communities in which we live …

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  10. grace Avatar

    yes…i count on your fierce love

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  11. hermosa Avatar
    hermosa

    oh and thank you Michelle for this access to Gloria Steinhem.
    and thank you Grace for your Realness.
    hermosa

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  12. grace Avatar

    real is all we have

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  13. grace Avatar

    oh…gently, yes…yes. and you know it doesn’t occur to me…
    the key words … and i never knew what that meant, dog whistle,
    but now i do and New Mexico is New Mexico. By under the radar
    i meant … in plain sight, really. Everything here is in
    plain sight. no need for radar.
    and don’t you think (no need to answer) that anything anyone might want to know about any of us any more is readily available?
    and any one is Welcome to come here looking for whatever they
    might want to look for. I’ll feed them lunch.

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  14. annalisa Avatar

    me too grace, me too

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  15. jan millington Avatar
    jan millington

    I have no words; XXX

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  16. grace Avatar

    me too are the most helpful words to hear

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  17. grace Avatar

    you have 3 big Xs tho…that’s very much enough

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