windthread

for now,  just a Beauty FULL looking cloth.

i thought about it.  All day.  Trying to imagine how i might do it….those panels,  that idea of  intermitant stitching,  different ways to do that but nothing felt right.    And going by the feeling of

Expansion/Contraction

it all felt contracted.  and i finally surrendered to the fact,  a fact to me,  that i was trying to MAKE the cloth be something,  DO something that had nothing to do with it's own integrity.  And this is not how things go with cloth making for me.  How it goes is that i am in Response to the cloth,  first,  the textile its self   and as it goes, to the story that wants to be told.    

so i let it go.  and immediately there was a feeling of Expansion,  of Opening Out.  So….ok.  and ok.

i also am a zillion times better today.  I will continue with the Breathe Deep tea maybe another day,  maybe two.  But i am feeling so close to my ordinary self.  How amazing this is.  How grateful i am for Plants,  for Lani who listens to them,  her great Gift of this.