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one of those nights.  All the words i put under the top two pics disappeared.  I have no energy to repeat them.   I think….they don't matter anyway.  the words.  

this last pic,  which won't turn upright,  snow peas that are finishing their season,  as i give water,  i pick the pods and open them,  eat the peas.  Give the pod shells to Tay who eats them.

i sit on the step and wait for Puppy the cat to appear.  It takes her a while for whatever reason,  but she does.  The bridge of her nose is all swollen.  She hunts.  This kind of thing will happen.  I watch,  to see if i might need to Do Something,  what that something might be is unknown at this point. But i watch and am somehow Ready.

Tenzen had some good days of being upright.  Yesterday and today not so much.  He's squashed at the fence and i go.  Give him a hand up,  standing,  i put the towel under him and grip it at the top to create a sling kind of thing,  we stand there,  minutes,  i talk to him,  we wait till his breathing is easy and then Go.  Moving slowly forward toward his gate area where the alfalfa feed is.  Keep the towel sling thing on till he has his bearings there.  He eats.  His appetite is good.  He spends the rest of his day lying peacefully.  Then,  we do it all over again in the morning.  We could call the vet and "put him down".  

if it goes ok,  tomorrow i will put a scrap on the Cloth.  Begin to stitch things down.  Sew things down.  Sunday.  I love Sunday.

this morning,  out the Window,  there was a brilliant FLASH of orange/red wing….that i know

Flicker

a spirit bird for me over the years.  I've not seen them here.  But i recognize that FLASH.  it couldn't be anything else.

 

 

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13 responses to “letting it be what it is”

  1. Michelle Slater Avatar

    Cloth in the process, Squash and Peas. Do you sometimes get the feeling that everything you need will be provided? Dear Tenzen and Puppy and dear you too. You picked a swell spirit bird. They are beautiful. I used to think the same blue Jay has followed me through my whole life, reincarnating each time I hear that call.

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  2. jude Avatar

    i’m exhausted, here, with no words but i love how peas grow.

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  3. Mo Crow Avatar

    love seeing these cloth develop with the strong gesture of the cloth in contrast to your fine drawn line

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  4. Patty Avatar

    Those huge leaves – hearts opening.

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar

    i think it’s possible…that same blue jay….
    depending on what i think i need, it already is.

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  6. grace Forrest Avatar

    they are just so perfect…the pod intimating what’s
    inside and then…sure enough…all lined up with those
    perfect umbilicals

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar

    thank you, Mo…i’m working at that…i really love
    what it can say

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    it’s a volunteer! have no idea, but a squash for sure.
    We eat all kinds through the winter months…could be
    anything. Today there were 5 blossoms.

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    had just put compost vegetables down at that farthest end…then the Goat compost. It’s still lower than the rest of the bed so will continue with that this coming winter. There’s also a potato plant.

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  10. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    I marvel at how you do what you do .. it is of course why I love you 😘!

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  11. Laura R Avatar
    Laura R

    Northern Flickers are one of my local favorites. I love that you have a spirit bird. (The orca is my spirit animal. I grew up in the Pacific Northwest.)
    You are so kind and helpful to Tenzen, who appreciates his gentlewoman. You are encouraging me to stop and look at the beauty of things we step on. School’s out for 2 months. I’m finally able to relax, concentrate, think and feel. I hope to listen to you and find the beauty that’s found in stillness.
    XO and thank you!

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    things say what they need. I just do that.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    that stillness is in all of us. Lives can require so much and
    there’s nothing to do other than Give that. But i am so glad
    that you have this SPACE from obligations, to keep your own
    company.
    Love to you, Laura,

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