i woke to read Jude's post. The goal isn't to answer the question(s). Magic Diaries. Is it here?
yes. and i hang it on the fence of B.
go. to feed Goats and see that Tenzen has died. He has been just going for a while now. This morning, he has died. He has Gone. Gone. Tenzen.
there was Wind today and i am glad. No need for condolence. He was an old Nigerian buck Goat. His life was good. We loved him. He is Earth now. He will become this Hill.
(((Tenzen))) fly free
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Gone with the wind…….
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Oh…how everything keeps going…love
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Can’t help it, I weep a bit. But lately I weep often.
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He was so well loved.
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But there is a blank space where Tenzen used to be.
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Tenzen in and of the Hill, always to be with all. Gideon, in and of the substation of Polvadera, always to be with all. Both holding love and spirit. Never forgotten privilege to have seen and been with both.
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Back because I was remembering Tenzen and how you had spoken of a Tenzen moon years ago…so, I do what I do, research and found these words that you wrote about Tenzen on Sept. 26, 2015. the last words, “Live it to its fullest. So, ok” is a fine epitaph for Tenzen:
“in the last several days, Tenzen has transformed. No longer the quiet one, he has become very suddenly a vocal tyrant. Standing on the roof of their hut, he repeats and repeats his most heartfelt vocalizations that are the tongue blubbering followed by a shrill falsetta call. Repeat. Repeat. etc. Young Nogal stands rapt beneath him, does not challenge him, but mutters quietly as he is sprayed (willingly) in the face with Goat jiz. This has ended with dark until last night. I was awakened at 11:30 by something and listened and there we go again. My hood can be completely silent at night. This night it was so and I “willed” him to stop for a half hour, he was the only only Sound. The ONLY sound. Over and Over and Over. So i got up and with the flashlight turned on the hose at the house, went out in my underpants in the dark and
hosed him.
it was a distance away, his roof, so he only got sprayed but it did the trick. Enough was Enough and today was moderate in comparison. But tonight, a day from Full Moon. From these days forward i will call this moon the Tenzen Moon. It’s not something easy to forget. It is just dusk now. How will things go tonight???? And Why, has he suddenly changed? By next year, if all the same of us are still here, young Nogal will challenge him and it will become a different story altogether. Nogal has large scur horns. Tenzen, successful disbudding which means, no horns. Next year it will become Nogal’s year. So maybe that’s it. Take your one year when it comes. Live it to it’s fullest. So, Ok.”
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So glad that he was able to make the trip to California with you. And now he is with you always. 🧡
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I just love when Marti brings your old written words .. those will never die. Tenzen was loved and cared for by the best. Big Hugs Grace ..
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Will come back to read comments later — just want to say that when you were named Grace, the universe was in accord with itself.
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Indeed, Dee.
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Yes, Dee. I agree.
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You’re a wonderful and loving caretaker of beings, Grace. You’ve had a rough couple of weeks. I feel for you. Your cloth is so exquisitely emotive.
XO
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Always a pang in my heart when dear ones pass.. how is that wee baby doing? This cloth!!! Wow!
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did i write that??????????????????????
dear you……
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Nina, yes. And it was a very very great time for
him. Up until these last couple weeks, things were
so good for him. He was very happy.
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i love Marti’s ability to find things…i never
would have…reading them was so good. My heart
smiled remembering
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there’s a lot of room for a lot more grace…i work
at it
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i am finding great happiness in being with it
OutSide…
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Ezra? he is GOOD. Feeding tube out. Is breathing
on his own. Has gained over a pound to the point
it’s clear he looks so much like his father.
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I am late coming here … saddened, but present … glad to know Ezra is thriving …
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