windthread

was holding this stone this morning as Sun rose.  Been a long time since i deliberately sat holding stones.  Asking.   it lasted much longer than i might have guessed,  this stone meditation.   And  when it finished,  i thought about the exchange yesterday in the comments,  about Plants,  about going to the Plants for help,  and then that thing of reciprocity.  

I was urged to pick up cloth and i did.    Just what was on the top of the basket to my left.   I wanted to place a face.  Thought about cutting through and putting a different muslin behind but did not do that,  instead,  folding some cloth and stitching to the back of this ground cloth so it rose some from it,  then stitching the oval of Face.  Small marks,  rubbed for "features".  It went from there.  to what you see  and it was time to feed Goats and  Give water to Wall garden. I need to take buckets of manure and alfalfa down,  every day now.    Which i did but as i was doing that,  i kept thinking.  The Plants.  the Plant Spirits….how it is said that they are so much willing to help us.  Always have been,  but now more than ever and as i did those things,  I ASKED.  I asked that they help me.   Help me What? i thought.  Help me in knowing how i can live…usefully….FOR the well being of the whole, here and in this Time.  As i walked down the Hill to A,  carrying the buckets,   i held these thoughts and repeated them.   After giving water,  i sat and continued.  Just breathing in the morning.   I asked for energy to live as i need to,  as i can.  

Coming up from that,  instead of putting it off,  i dumped SunnyRay and Jacks water and hauled the hose and refilled so it was fresh,  something i might have ordinarily put off till  "later".  I stood and watched SunnyRay come immediately and drink,  LONG and DEEP and that was satisfaction enough.  Just that.      But i came in and the request for Help remained and i was needing to  Ask again,  a different way,  to ask about reciprocity…how do i reciprocate?  and the answer was immediate.  Talk about Us.   and then,  Do what you do.   And i thought…what do i do?,  i take Care.  I write this blog.  I make cloth.

the rest of the hours went quickly.   Again,  just from the top of the basket,  pieces that were just enough,  cut and torn, placed with so little "thought",  just placed.  and then stitched down.  On and on,  some hours.   Roots are still to come,  but for now,  this Plant Spirit and it's evening now.  The Goats have been fed.  Their water replenished.  When i'm through with this,  i'll take this cloth over to that resting place on the hill behind B.  Near the young manzanita and sit.   Look at it.  Ask if it is Good.