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it rained all day.   I carried the Doe  Goat feed up the hill and put it in their shelter where it's dry.  SonnyRay and Jacks new feeder kept theirs dry and Nogal,  i cheated and fed small clump of alfalfa that he eats very quickly.  Talkie hung with the Doe Goats in their Place.  

It was a long day.  At one point i was very surprised to see that it was only 12:30.  Like that.   If there had been a break in it i would have come back here,  above,  and continued.  If you click to enlarge,  you can see that piece of wood Form that was over the gate in New Mex.  and just next to it,  the Diamond shaped one that was the mast of the Raft in that desert.  Here now.

but too much rain,  so i found the pencil to see what might want to show up and it was a woman kneeling.  Took a while to get just this much…what does kneeling LOOK like?   I would close my eyes and try to see then try with the pencil.  I had remembered to go to Joanna Macy's Website yesterday…the Work that Reconnects…..    She does not shy away from Truth,  and i found solace there,  i also found determination and  willingness to Go Well.

Soon it will be Solstice which always is a Beginning to me…the turning to the Light…the Good just going.   I realize i feel like i live with two hearts.  One so easily celebrates Joy,  is so wide open to Receive all that this place can teach,  all that is so Beauty Full and Fierce and brilliantly Creative  and FINE   and then a second heart that is the other part of that Love,  that is so grief stricken with the lack of will on the part of humanity to face….as it was so aptly named…the inconvenient truth.  We move some in that direction,  but only some and we may not have enough time.    

one of her Practices is the Despair Ritual.    In the days ahead,  i will build that cairn.  Place a circle of stones.   Create a place to take the grief that is just up and over from the Garden there where JOY grows.   Two Hearts.  One Love.  Work on that.