I cleaned. I cleared the Everything Table and it became an Eating table. the battery went over to shelf in front of the Looking Cloth. The books stacked next to me. The bench on the other side of the table cleared of Cloth Baskets which were stacked in front of the door to the back room in the bathroom. I strung the Beauty Full strand of pennants that Acey had sent a while ago. It felt festive and spacious. Fed everyone OutThere and put Talkie to bed. Set the big pot of water to boil and fired up the oven for the baked potatoes and the Green bean casserole. Put together a BIG SALAD of everything. New year's Eve at the old nana's. They arrived shortly after dark.
It went as i'd deviously planned. I'd gotten a small steak for Julian in case he might have issues with the crab legs. HOPING he had issues with the crab legs. He did. and the steak got made first so he could begin as i dropped the first round of legs into the pot. More for Alyssia and me. Emrie ate a little i think only because of the melted butter. Julian ate one. Alyssia and i ate a LOT. We ate and then we hung out. Emrie sang songs and she and i painted our nails with my water brush taking turns…her: Now your turn. Now my turn. Your turn. her favorite ritual lately.
they left about 9. We'd celebrated by the light of 7 flashlights and i clicked them all off. Sat a while. The lights had reminded me of being in India 50 years ago…peace corps…Diwali, the Festival of Lights. I googled it. "usually lasting five days and celebrated during the Hindu Lunisolar month Kartika. One of the most popular festivals of Hinduism, Diwali symbolizes the spiritual "victory of light over darkness, good over evil, and knowledge over ignorance.'..wikipedia"
a sign. my epiphany glowed in my mind in neon.
got the calendar on a cleared space on the table. This page is typical. There's a lot. More than ever of my life so far. Too much for late and tired. And i thought…Diwali…5 days. OK. I can take 5 days this time. Go through it slow and in the light of the epiphany. "an Aha! moment. As a literary device, epiphany is the moment when a character is suddenly struck with a life changing realization which changes the rest of the story. Often an epiphany begins with a small, everyday occurrence or experience."
What if it's all just Evolution? All the things that feel so difficult on the Planet today, all symptomatic manifestations of simple Evolution. Homo sapiens being just still at the beginning. Even Eckhart Tolle said "evolve or die". Maybe that's it. And it is so simple but so HUGE, so beyond conceptual thought that it all feels so imminent and "personal". What if it's the story of Earth. Whether we as a species can understand our Place in the whole of things. Maybe we will. Maybe we won't. It remains to be seen. And that pings off another Sign. One of the essences Acey sent is Sight Unseen. !!!! I find it on the altar and put 2 drops under my tongue. Somehow it all is different now. The WORK is to understand the work of Steadfast. It's too big for anything else. But learning Steadfastness….this i can do. This i WILL do. I can walk the days learning from the Mycelium under me…asking, listening, doing. and in the company of all who come here and in the company of all who will go too, Sight Unseen. There is a great relief, a great opening of light. Maybe humankind will. Maybe it won't. Earth however will continue its Evolving. It's January 1, 2020. 20/20. hindsight.
I Love.
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