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i can choose.   Every day.   How i see and experience my life.   Many nuances from pragmatic to totally SURReAL.   All are valid.  All carry Truth.  Choose.   Choosing.

i sat here,  in this small house space last night a longtime.   For a while,  a dog barked in the distance,  repetatively.   Which means a dog tied or confined.   A dog sensing but unable to Find Out.   and i thought about sensing and finding out.   about choosing.    

and the dark became deeper.   I slid into the Surreal.   Where AM i?   How did i get here?  Where is Here?   What is that on the wall in front of me that i call Evolution?   What is Making?,  like,  really?   i got out the collage images of Acey's  30 days.  Looked.  I thought about the woven cloth OutSide,  hanging from trees from the early days of Jude.   I thought about the exchanges with Jenny that began when she was pushed,   finally,  from my body  FROM MY BODY,  this 40 something old human being that i MADE…inside myself,   then

pushed her out.

I read.  Over and over all the comments left here and was so grateful for them.   How reading them opened  different ways of seeing  

And i want to say THANK YOU,   from deep in my Heart for all of them.   Want to say how they validate the Purpose and USE of blogging to me,   how we come to know Each Other and have a Sense of the Other's lives and can

WEIGH IN

with so many eyes and hearts.  And how it is for ALL of Us.   All of Us.

Alyssia was here this eve and commented that in phone with Jenny,  that she said how Good a Day Sunday was.

This is Big.  Big enough so it blurs the lines.  That mark degrees from pragmatic to surreal.

Thank YOU

 

 

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10 responses to “choosing”

  1. Acey Avatar

    “a dog sensing but unable to Find Out.”
    oh god. sounds like the first half century of my life …

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  2. Liz A Avatar

    blogging … surreal in its own way, how we connect through bits of metal, plastic and wire which connect to … what? … ether?
    thank goodness, because the love and caring to be found here are so rich in, well, good-ness
    and then there’s the simple truth, how just a little bit each day, whether it be words or marks on paper or stitches on cloth, how those little bits add up to something … that matters

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  3. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    We can never actually BE what others want or need us to be. We can just do the best we can. I wrote more but the puzzle that is mother and daughter is unique to each of us. My dynamic with my mother was horrible but I worked to provide my daughter with a more positive experience. Far from perfect. Far from what I had wanted…but it works for us. She feels safe and loved. Not always understood.

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  4. Mo Crow Avatar

    (((Grace))) namaste

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  5. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Not even the miles between us .. can separate us. I find such loving honesty here than I ever imagined possible. I hold you all within with a grateful heart. When counting my Blessings you’re all included.

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  6. grace Forrest Avatar

    was so much Longing

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar

    adding up. and it DOES matter and in ways i think
    we have no idea

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    i think we are sorting through possibilities to bring us
    to something New and the only way to get there is to sort through

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    our grateful hearts. All our grateful hearts

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