something…maybe a sound?, maybe nothing, but something woke me in the DarkRainNight, i clicked on 3 flashlights when one would have been enough, but i clicked on 3……. Went to sit at the table after turning on the heat. Put my socks on, boots, located the sweatshirt, made sure i knew where the gloves were, the Fat Max big spotlight flash. Sat down to listen. Like an animal. Very Still. Breathing light and high in the chest. Nothing more and so for a while i just looked at the Altar that is shared with a 2 1/2 year old person. Thought about that. Sharing an Altar with a two and one half year old person. The Luck of it. and how she innately understands about Altar, about things we keep there. She has her toy basket and all that, that gets spread all over and sometimes not put back…left when it's time to go home. She has her pencils and papers stuff on the table that gets moved around sometimes falls on the floor. But ….her stuff on her side of the Altar, stuff she likes of mine on my side, stuff on my side that she does not touch and does not wish to. The stuff on the Altar….things with deep personal meaning and connection…representational and also alive in and of themSelves. She understands the difference and works with that difference in her own 2 and 1/2 year old mind/heart. I think about this. All the while, listening, still……listening to the Dark, the Wet Dark.
can you see her? Down in the bottom left, just above the pin? Reaching UP? Barely there?
Day 2 of all day Rain. I spend time reading words my phone provides. I touch cloth. I continue to listen and watch out the window, Goats, i watch Caroline closely. I make very slight marks on the Cloth with a #2 pencil. Feed self. Read more. Write a letter of response to my friend in Magdalena New Mexico inside this craft paper card and then close it. Begin to draw on the face of it. That Eye, a Plant. Late in the afternoon the Governor of California issues a call for all persons over 65 in the state of California to Stay Home. But what feels the most Intense is that all public schools in NYC are now Closed. Indefinitely.
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