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land of the Rough Gods

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Rough Gods.   Orphan Wisdom    Nights of Grief and Mystery

Eugene Gendlin    Focusing

i went there,  to look for understanding.   After a Lot,   what finally stood.   the word Betrayal.   FeltSense.   Strong and Sure.   If i were to     quit     it would be a betrayal.    of what?    

Back again,  always circle back and around,   always  and back to that paraphrase from Clarissa Pinkola Estes,   Women Who Run With The Wolves….

Stand         and face what you know.

those words have held me for Years.   Through so much.   To turn,  walk away,  now…would be betrayal.   i will continue to understand all that would be betrayed,  to sift through and find the small stones that shine.   But immediately,  i think,  and this might change,  i think i would be Betraying this Hill and what it offers.   I would be betraying the Love between the person of Emrie and i.   The "contract" between me,  Jenny and Alyssia.    The contract between me and the Goats.    So,  ok.

contract…Caroline  Myss

and the basket on the opposite bench said….look.   i did and pieces came together.   The Land of the Rough Gods.

 

 

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29 responses to “land of the Rough Gods”

  1. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    Grace, you had fair expectations: A house, electricity, water, help, family and a community. Please find what you need. Please ask for help, express what you need. We are here for you. Asking for what you need is not betraying others.
    (Please let me know if I have read this all wrong.)
    xo
    Laura

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  2. Deb G Avatar
    Deb G

    Sitting here quietly with you for awhile. Sending love.

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  3. Michelle Slater Avatar
    Michelle Slater

    I’m here to be discarded.

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  4. Yvette Avatar
    Yvette

    Sending love too….heaps
    https://www.facebook.com/moojiji/videos/2568235620081988/
    I know the video on the link can hurt people who lost a dearone but ……Grace…it made me quiet in the sense of hope
    I love you so much….ask if You need help lieffie….

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  5. jude Avatar
    jude

    betrayal is often a response to the same. but hard to see it that way because of our habit of creating sides.

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  6. Liz A Avatar
    Liz A

    “find the small stones that shine”

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  7. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    You are simply too hard on yourself, betrayal, no, stepping back, probably good to do now and then as you did, a pause… I know you, have known you for years and the one thing that I know, that I spoke of in an earlier comment is that you are one who has always stood and faced…
    Here you are, and in your way, you have worked through the “rough” patch and although more rough will always be present, you work to smooth it out, as you always have, knowing that it will not be perfectly smooth, but then, who would want a perfectly smooth life- what lessons come from “smooth”…nada!

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  8. Cheryl Fillion Avatar
    Cheryl Fillion

    While you stand and face, there are many of us who are standing beside and behind you. Not to fix anything, but just to lend love and strength. So much love and strength. Always.

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  9. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    those rough gods have a wild sense of humour too!

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  10. Beth Avatar
    Beth

    You are one of my guiding stars. But I can’t see the stars every night. Trusting they are there is enough in-between times.

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  11. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    Give- Take. Strong- Weak. Stay – Go. Pain- Joy. Life- Death ….. Everything has a second side. Perhaps I will get the paper and glue stick out. Make a collage for each of these.

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  12. Irene Avatar
    Irene

    :BIG HUG:

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  13. maria Avatar
    maria

    but flowers are strong , they can grow in the crack of a rock , look at the trees …. the samen ; you know there is a crack … thats how the light get in !!!

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  14. Kirsten Avatar
    Kirsten

    I love this cloth. As i scrolled down earlier to see it, I thought for a moment that the small piece on the upper right was a feather that had landed. Then to see the brown piece was as if it was a rock.
    This piece alone without the words spoke to me quite loudly today.

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    I didn’t explain
    BIg big Love to you, Laura

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i like this. we sit.

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Jeez, michelle

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i love that you Know Mooji..Alyssia and I spend time with him

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    creating sides

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    they are always there

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  21. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i am working to find a way to Be in it all

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  22. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    it’s becoming clear that we can’t fix. So we just
    stand…as you say. Together.

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  23. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    no humor right now

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    we are all stars in ourskyofUs

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    collage….a good path for finding the way

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  26. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    Irene
    and Back to you

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  27. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. always.

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  28. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i’m glad it has a voice for others….very.

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  29. Mo Crow Avatar
    Mo Crow

    it’s spring up there, the season when “earth laughs in flowers” Ralph Waldo Emerson

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