these pics were from yesterday which feels like for ever ago…not a yesterday at all….the possibility of Evacuation pending, had continued. There was temptation to Give Water, Feed but then sleep. I had no energy. none. The "air", sky, Air that is between and touching everything was a strange mustard yellow and ash was floating. The Fire Alert channel, on phone, said it wasn't from the fire here, but all the way from the Big Fires south of here. Ash lands on the leaves of the plants. I just wanted to sleep. But then the phone pinged
son messaged me. This is his daughter, Giana. My granddaughter. In Colorado. Somehow i had a vague vague sense of information on that rolodex in my mind…Alyssia saying, press down the pic tap the 3 dots pick one that says send….and i did this and sure enough, this photograph was off my phone and into the photo gallery. Here. She's 6. I hardly know her. They came here the first year i got here…before that, they had come to New Mex twice. I talk to her once in a while on the phone. She calls me Goat Grama. They go camping a lot….places of Great Beauty in Colorado, once a year they travel, last summer it was Yellowstone. They want to take her to New Zealand. I sat and looked at her a long time. a really Long time.
and it occured to me that maybe i could do that with other pics? So i went down the sidebar here to Archives…all the way back to the beginning, 2010…found this and tried it. Yes. i can bring those old pics from New Mex here. From that other life.
i looked at this pic a Long Time. On my Wall there, at the center top is the first Cloth i bought from Jude. Under it is the first Cloth i made, made by looking closely at how she did things over at Spirit Cloth. Looking in this moment is really like looking at some other person….i remember her well, but …
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