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i am so glad to have this Cloth.   I used the Inktense  Payne's Grey.    Payne's Grey being  "my color",  along with  Mars Violet from way back…using Oils to paint the masks of the fiber figures.   This cloth took it as very blue.  Bluer than i'd  imagined,   but it will be ok.   somehow,  more than ok.    i just can't see that yet.   

I woke this morning to face the grief.   the  LOSS.   i wandered,  wrote in the stenographers notebook all that came to mind and came away with two things.  Both very simple.   the first is that all we can do is the best we can.  One moment to the next.    The best each of us can….best to be defined only by the one doing their best.   Moment to moment.   We will see where this takes us. The second…for me.   Orient.  Each day.  For me….this is early morning as Sun rises.   To turn my face,  literally,   like a SunFlower will do.  To turn my face and orient toward  Goodness. Toward what Helps.  Toward the Well Being of the Whole.  That's it.   Simple things.   We will somehow make it through.

there is one Point of Bright Light.    Neither Emrie or Brin have ever had a friend.   Friend  as Emrie describes it,  "a real child".  it's been something like 18 months?  of Covid isolation for both of them.   at 4 years,  that being all either of them know.   But she watches things on her Kindle.   She knows,  has known that there is a different way.   Now….the result of Circumstance,  they suddenly each have a real child.   They have each other.  Or,  as my daughter Jenny and her cousin Sarah used to say….

theirchothers.   for Emrie,  it's a dream come true.  For Brin,  it might  soften the Edge.  

they Play.     I say….T….we will do the best we can.   We will.

 

 

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28 responses to “one moment”

  1. Beth Avatar
    Beth

    Oh grace. My heart broke for you yesterday. Yes. Do the best we can. Loving thoughts to you and your family.

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  2. grace Forrest Avatar

    it’s the small things. Today he cried because he does not know how to do Brinley’s hair.
    Alyssia will show him. He will learn.

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  3. grace Forrest Avatar

    she was/is such a BeautyFull youngwoman.

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  4. Beth Avatar
    Beth

    It seems so unfair. He’s been through a lot of hardship already. I remember when fate was born.

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  5. Mo Crow Avatar

    (((Grace & all your beautiful family)))

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  6. jude Avatar

    I’m waiting for the sun to come up here. sometimes words rise up with the sun.

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  7. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Emrie and Brin; how they will come to know each other, how they will come together, and in so doing, help to give purpose to this unexpected sadness. Deepest love to you grace and La Familia who show,through their love and support, how it is to stand and face and to do so with honor, respect and deep meaning.
    Brin could not be in better hands or have a better place to come to than the Hill for its quiet beauty and wonder will hold her and Jeff in healing as will the loving arms of all of you. I believe that T will know this…

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    Fate just had his 6th birthday. They all celebrated
    at the River park. A pinata. 2 weeks ago.
    When Fate was born Jeff was still unformed. He has
    become a very fine and good Man.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    just stitch something. maybe some just going.

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    who would ever have imagined we would all be asked this.

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  12. Deb G Avatar

    Sending love. We don’t know, we never know. It’s why my mom includes love each time she comments on my blog.

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  13. Nancy Avatar

    Grace, You and yours have been in my heart thoughts…sending so much love Grace. xo

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  14. Irene Avatar
    Irene

    So sorry to learn of your family’s loss.
    :BIG HUG:

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  15. Faith Avatar

    (((((Grace)))))

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  16. Judy Martin Avatar

    Oh my dear, I am very sorry to read this and am sending you and those children and their dad as much love as is possible through this comment.
    I would like to do more.
    So sorry
    xo

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  17. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    So hard to hear this news of your loss.. sending Love and Hugs. Somewhere amongst the grief a tiny light will emerge…towards hearts growing from such unimaginable pain.. . and if it starts with two 4 year olds and a six year old.. may the strength of family hold you all up together.

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar

    i always love that…how she does that. it’s to you,
    but also somehow overflows to me.

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar

    nancy…we go. the love helps us do that.

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar

    i wish it wasn’t true

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  22. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    So hard .. trying to understand the unimaginable. I am so sorry for all of you trying to wrap your arms around such sudden unexpected loss. Only time and comfort given from one to the other will help heal your pain. Gentle hugs to you Grace and all your family.

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  23. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes…we would All like to do more, but it simply is.
    and so. one stitch at a time.

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  24. grace Forrest Avatar

    it will be the children

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  25. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. Time. time.
    hug back to you Tina

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  26. Liz A Avatar

    a real child … to each other … finding meaning in loss … my heart aches for you and yours

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  27. grace Forrest Avatar

    it is an aching Thing. so aching. How we move through
    it, going, just going. aching and just going

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  28. Saskia Avatar

    I am so sorry for your loss ((Grace))

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