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B Garden took a hit from the "weather" phenomenon.   I couldn't bear to take a pic.   But….there,  under the Yellow Daisy bush…these.   about 4 ",  the largest.    After triage,  i came back up to look in the beautifully photographed Mushrooms of California  pamphlet.      I found   White Matsutake/Pine Mushroom.     Cap and stem white to yellowish with reddish brown fibrous patches,  flesh very firm,  spicy aroma,  gills are attached, membranous veil, found in coniferous forests.  Highly prized for its taste;  harvested/shipped worldwide.   and then…..BEWARE of similar white mushrooms that are poisonous.

i continue looking….almost same pic:   Smith's Amanita.   White to cream cap with cotton like warts,  veil shaggy,  cottonlike when young,  gills close to crowded.  found in conifer forests   NOTE  This species occasionally mistaken for the Pine mushrooms….a deadly mistake!  

and this is how it is for me.  With mushrooms.    I have yet to wander the rest of the forests here.  Am sure that there are many or will be many  mushroom Beings rising up from that Storm.    Would have been so Perfect for them,  so Energizing.  Maybe this year i'll follow through and put forth the effort to find someone…a PERsON who i trust to teach me.   ?????  Tucked into the pamphlet is a publication about Lake Oroville….a map.   I hadn't looked at it before.  It's Wonder FULL.   These are things that Jenny gave me the first winter i was here.   I am slow to acclimate,  yes?  yes.   But…i look at that map and there is so much…just down the way and across from here.   I think of Nancy   Pomegranate Trail,  her goings.   i think…c'mon, grace,  what's your deal?

i love mushrooms,  fungus….something so magical about 

spores

about the forest floor,   that holds the Waiting,  that cannot be domesticated,  that has such wild agency

tonight as i was closing the door.   the Tree Frogs began singing their Winter Rain Song.

today was T's  "funeral".    as her mother wanted.   Jeff made it through.   Jenny accompanied him.  Alyssia had Brinley and Emrie nearby at a park   She said there was a ladybug on the slide and they looked up…into the sky blue sky and said thank you, auntie T,  Mama,    thank you for sending this to us.  Love Love

 

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13 responses to “the goingness of Just Going”

  1. Patty M Avatar

    Ladybugs are always a sign of good things coming for me. Hope they are for
    you too. A mushroom teacher is who you need so you can pick the right ones!

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Well I cried to read this: two little girls, a wise Auntie who knew that having them outdoors, in nature, is a blessing in and of itself…a Mother’s love, always present…a ladybug sent to remind…

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  3. Liz A Avatar

    there was a ladybug at my mom’s funeral … all the words that washed over me that day are long gone, but I’ve never forgotten the ladybug on the wooden sill beneath the stained glass …
    and Jeff … a hard gift to give to T’s mom, letting her child go … I hope it will rest easy within him as time goes by

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  4. jude Avatar

    I just don’t know mushrooms, so nervous. Need someone to know.
    Sometimes sweet stories heal us.

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  5. Peggy McG Avatar
    Peggy McG

    So glad T has had her final send off, for all her loved ones left behind moving forward, a tender memory that can be embraced forever.
    I had a mushroom identification book once but still never trusted myself to gather any. The threat of one that May be the one keeps All mushrooms safe!

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  6. Nancy Avatar

    Those sweet girls had me shed a tear. The bond of this time will run deep for them, I believe…for it is the connections and bonds that stay, the rest routines, rituals of closure, while so needed, are not always needed for the long haul (as Liz also spoke to). Hugs to your family. xo

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  7. grace Forrest Avatar

    Ladybug…for the little girls…something they easily
    identify…so BeautyFULL

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    oh, eeee, Marti. so hard to know the way for those so
    very young

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    i hope so too. He is having a very hard time.

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    it’s hard to know what heals

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes…i took more pics of mushroom today. in case i find
    a person

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    we now move into the long haul.

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  13. Deb G Avatar

    There is so much right now, so much… sending love.

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