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i have been doing someThing for quite a while now.   Thinking a Big Thought.   

I have been thinking a Big Thought for quite a while now.   OR   the Thought has presented  its Self ,  does present its Self for me to think.    I have no capability to give words  to It or the thinking OF It.    But i have been and am,  more and more preoccupied  to the extent that everything now appears to be a part of it.    Preoccupied.    And now….add a

WAR

why is this    WAR  seeming to be so different?    There have been Wars all along my life.    

this was a Town day.  i left late and came home late.   Switched over all the ice for the refrigerator,  brought in food,  mine, dog, cat.    Did  the Evening Routine that includes 3 green somethings for Nogal at his fence,  tonight, 3 green beans.   Was a grey day with RAIN forecast   tomorrow.   Some new information was given for the Big Thought this morning but i couldn't stay with it.  But i did,  long enough to realize clearly that how i THINK is by looking.  By rearranging things,  letting things trip off memories or senses or weave connections.   The things gathered above.   Together.   Singular but part of a Whole.   

so i am not making sense.   But that's going to have to be ok because it's how it all is right now.   I somehow have

Faith

that i will ,   uhhhh,   that i will……        ……..    uhh,  come to a new place.    Where i haven't ever been before.     And it will be the right place to be.

 

 

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18 responses to ““my brain” “my mind” “me” and our very big thought.”

  1. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    What keeps me deep in thought is the resilience of the people of Ukraine: how they stand and face and fight but what also keeps me awake is the dread that Ukraine may be destroyed. How it is to the world’s credit that we have sent humanitarian aid, military aid yet do nothing to help them on a physical level…and I get that the threat of nuclear war has never been more real; that it is why we hold off on no fly zones and do not put boots on the ground because Ukraine is not part of NATO so I get that and would not want any more to be put in harms way but I have a hard time understanding this barrier… so from afar, we do what we can to show solidarity, linked hearts and prayers.
    One million refugees, women and children. The scenes of the utter destruction; children holding onto their loveys, their teddy bears, their stuffed dogs; Mothers as brave as any that I have seen anywhere and in Russia, thousands who stood up for decency, hauled off to jail. The media doing their part to bring it to us but there is also that gut clinch that says the more emotional, the more Viewers, the more broadcast $ and that may be cynical but this is our world today…
    Still we need to know but in the knowing, such grief so we look to the helpers as Mr. Rogers always said: to the couple from Denmark who drove to the Polish/Ukraine border and said they would take in 8 people to their home to provide food and shelter; to Jose Andres and World Central Kitchen, who tirelessly feed everyone; to the many donations of $ from every where from so many charitable groups. I just learned that the seeds I ordered from Baker Creek Heirloom seeds over the weekend, were part of their aid for Ukraine and $1.6 million was raised to send to Ukraine.
    As I wrote a few years ago: Hope is standing up, not standing aside…to connect in a way that helps to make us all one.

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  2. Deb G Avatar

    Ukraine is different and not different. I’ve been thinking of other conflicts/wars too, what kinds of reactions there have been. I’ve been thinking a lot about how strange it is to be “human,” what we need to survive and what we have created as a world society/community.

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  3. Beth Avatar

    (grace) No words… but feel the need to say: I am here.

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  4. maria Avatar
    maria

    oke i’m here to
    singular but part of a whole

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  5. Faith Avatar

    “that i will , uhhhh, that i will…… …….. uhh, come to a new place. Where i haven’t ever been before. And it will be the right place to be.”
    This is to me the essence of Faith and Hope.

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  6. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    I wish

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  7. Laura Avatar
    Laura

    Woman no cry

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    are we at a juncture in our Evolving ?
    are we at
    a Place?

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    yes. what it is to be human. to survive. to evolve further. maybe it’s a brink

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    the touch of this

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    wish is such a Beauty Full thing

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    woman
    we cry
    i thought today about all the women of Russia. Their
    sons and husbands fathers
    being sent
    to perform these acts of violence
    i spent long time doing Metta for the women of Russia
    May they Stand

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  13. Liz A Avatar

    my heart also hurts for the soldiers … young men who thought they would be “playing” war “games” and are now being ordered to kill real people, to destroy real houses … to look into the eyes of the people who will not run from them … the trauma that they too must absorb and live with for the rest of their lives …

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    Metta today for them, the russian soldiers, the PEOPLE of russia How we could be them.

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