the directions say to "fill carrier to full capacity, while carrier is on the roof". What constitutes Full Capacity? so here, on the bed. All the winter(Rain)season clothes i found so beyond useful. the Wool blankets. the "sandpaper" sheets. one under bed blanket storage container with a few oversize books, some art of grandson and son. small treasures. and otherwise,
cloth. all those zip locks. Hopefully on the weekend Jenny can help get it up there and positioned so i can fill it like this and we can strap it in place. And i can……………i can…………live the present moments. as they come. as they Need. Nogal didn't want his 3 tortilla chips yesterday. and again this morning. i glanced at his water tub, was ok enough till this eve. and when i went to change it, there was a drowned lizard in it. There is no excuse for this. it's 103 and he has a dead lizard in his water probably since yesterday. no excuse, grace.
in between the above, when i was sitting with the little fan blowing on me, breathing, i started this. I want to SAVE those moments (again last night) of feeling the trees reach down to Hold….i want to Mark. it keeps just looking vertical and it is so much also horizontal and i've forgotten how to make that happen….if you want to get good at something, you have to do it a lot, not just once in awhile….
drawing
i remembered the classes that my So Loved Kay Gould~Caskey taught way back in the Ann Arbor, Michigan days, forever ago in that other life….i think of them and can recreate them perfectly in my Memory…the Felt/Sense… how she would come, sit next to us, each in our turn, we would tell her what we were seeing in our Mind'sEye …what we didn't know how to get onto the paper and she would look long and say things…some direct about how it might happen, sometimes just wondering, just questioning, The vibration in those rooms of women, her, was ~High~ and so so Beauty Full….. i thought today… If Only….
Tomorrow…Trust Time. 5 minutes.
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