went to Nogal's Forest to see if i could soak in the feeling of him. Talkie went with me. There were MANY mushrooms and fungus…pics in the next days
and this! would have been from 2 years ago….last year she only laid those tiny ones. Must have been from a time she was disturbed off her established nest in the hay feed….needing to be Just Going…so….there, at the base of a tree.
and today it continues, but intermittant. that
RAIN
and tonight WIIIIIIIND. This year, to Atmospheric River, we add …..Bomb Cyclone.
Received a loving email, which i so deeply appreciate, asking….if i am considering beginning the process of letting go…this Goat Keeping i do. and i think. Yes. this is hard. But it's the love. not the actuality of it. i want to be clear…the doing of caring for them…might be compared to taking a good brisk walk in your neighborhood. recommended exercise. In ordinary times. In these Un Ordinary days, these days of Climate Changes, it becomes something different entirely and what that triggers is fear. Fear that i cannot do what they need me to do. and that would be for anyone. It would be same for Alyssia or Jenny.
so it's the fear that is my work. the reality that i won't be able to control everything. that things might happen. it is the same thing that any animal herding peoples will be feeling anywhere around the planet. a dog or a cat. you can bring them in. a Herd, not. and it is not meant to be. We have been unbelievably lucky. Our Goats are strong. Strong bodied, stron willed. a Strong herd. The vet commented on this. But we will only be able to do what we can. Everything we can. and then….surrender to Life Its Self. This kind of back to back Storm might repeat. or not. There is no knowing if it will beome a pattern. so…just to learn what we can. On the next good enough day, Alyssia and i will bring Nogal's calf hutch over to Jack Flash. Position it at an angle, Wind, and close enough to the fence so i will be able to toss a chunk of Feed to it's doorway. He loves his Tarp Tent. He may choose to ignore the hutch. We'll see. but it's what we can do.
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