windthread

i'll leave it again with no picture.

what i want to say here is difficult because i need to say it with so few words.   But i also want to say it.  So,  i'll just try.

Yesterday when i arrived at Alyssia''s,    Jenny was just outside there and said….How was your meeting?

but then immediately    corrected to     i know it's not a meeting,   How was your Group?   and i said something like,  Intense and very Beauty Full   and she was still "there",  indicating,    waiting   if there was more,  and i said     my offering for the day was how i'd been thinking about  Love.   About Love as a verb.   How i say Love Love and  then more,   I love you   and what does that MEAN?   to those i say it to and what does that mean  really,  to me?   and she was still looking at me…..so i went on and said…..i used You as an example,   saying something about how i have never figured out a way to love you,  or, …….. express love     that i think you are comfortable with,     and at that point the kids  burst upon the scene and  we went on into the house

and     i thought…uh~oh       and then the day went on so Well.    and there was less of    ummmmm,   the edgy humor  that usually is present,   and NO what we refer to as Sub Text to the exchanges  and it was such a Good Good Day

and then……….today.   They came to finish up the immediate things needing to be done in preparation for the Rain Season.  Brought more bedding straw and put it in the Rain House.   We talked it through and decided to bring the other calf hutch that was Sunny Ray's out and find a place for it in case there was a Goat needing shelter….OOna probably             and she looked at the Thing that's going on with Oona's  udder and butt hole  which is a typical End Time thing  occurring with old  doe Goats.  How do we want to deal with this  and the conversation was Easy and Long and Slow and Gentle.   She is pragmatic by nature but it was Easy and Long and Slow and Gentle  and….when she called me to look at something,  she called me MOM and not Graaaaace.    

and this is what i want to say

if this were a perfect world in the way i might imagine it could be

there would be a World Wide Group Therapy.   We would meet,  ALL OF US,  in our own little communities,  but somehow also World Wide.   on one day.   every two weeks.   When we would be our most authentic selves….no fear.  trusting.   and Wendy would facilitate.   and just that.   just that.   could bring about change….where we all could become more easy and long and slow  and gentle.      and it would ripple out    become many things.    This i Wish today