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i debated about this.    

but it's the truth of this day in early March,  2024.     The "plumbing" for the toilet,  which in travel trailers consists of tubes and valves etc.   has been leaking.   Bathroom floor is      damp      or    plain wet      so a while ago i put two  of those  door mat rugs  in there thinking it would keep the surface dry.    They are wet.    the kind that have the rubber bottoms and some sort of rugish substance on top.   There's a little stool at the sink and i tripped on it and it moved and   Lo and Behold       this being above.  There are actually two of it.  or two parts of it.     I put the stool back in place.   Over it.   Like it was.    I've known about this for a few days now.   Check on it now and then.   It grew but seems to be what it wants to be now.       HOW   did it happen?   a

spore?

how did a spore come in and locate  this spot?  What might its purpose be?              What's next?     Kill it?     

this  "winter" has been extremely difficult.    One thing after another.   The built in heater system wouldn't work and then about a month or so ago the hot water heater stopped working.    a leak in the roof over the back room   and the near constant RAIN preventing work outside in attempt to correct.   and we try to locate the man who we are told works on such things.      I keep saying       the Rain will stop soon.   It will dry up,  warm up.     But what's for sure is that in the months ahead we need to  fix things or find alternates before next Rain Season rolls around.    I have a list.    

and the Good        Working with Sharon Salzberg's  Practices…….i can watch it so clearly….the "add ons"   that roll in.   Any given    MOMENT,   the breath,   this ONE SINGLE MOMENT that is Now    breathing and the add ons begin….how this shouldn't be happening,  how it WAS in N. Mex   how helpless it feels    how much i HATE being wet and cold  how California shouldn't be this way   how over burdened Jenny and Alyssia already are with their own lives, how i am old and dependent on them  how how how how     and daily now.   it becomes easier and easier to just BE.   THIS moment   breath on through.   I am Safe.  I am happy.   I am healthy.   and in so many ways,  i live with Ease.    and Let it Go.      and all that comes with Gathering at the Well  i cannot really talk about.  But it is the aliveness of who we are as we move through this time of our lives  " finding Purpose and Release in Authentic Living "      words of Wendy Golden Leviett      

 

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  1. sarita Avatar
    sarita

    Oh Grace…💙
    I completely understand this. Two trees fell on ours a couple months ago, and its snowing.
    I think of you often.

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  2. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Truth: you have always found purpose in how you have lived your life, an authentic life, no mater where that has been but sometimes, we cannot do this alone:
    Jenny, Alyssia, you are all interconnected, a family, who give what is needed, when it is needed with the full measure of each of you and let us not forget that you gave up New Mexico to come to CA to be of immense help and devoted love for family, to help with the children, especially Emrie, and equally, to keep alive, Jenny’s goat herd…who else could care for them on a daily basis? So accept all of their help when they can give it because being cold, wet, damp, spores growing in your living space, well no…the sunny days will come and that will help but the plain ad simple truth here is that this needs to be fixed now.

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  3. Yvette Avatar
    Yvette

    My love Grace….i wish it was different for you.. the cold wet muddy feeling…..
    It seems difficult to join sharon Salzberg practicing with the cold wet reality
    Please everybody at the well love you dearly and as I Saïd once before….meeting you changed my life.
    We all live out liefs and you must not try to feel sorry for us….
    You can come to my house and I rub and miss you warm….i wish

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  4. Diane James Avatar
    Diane James

    You don’t know me but, 💕💕💕

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    no, not Yet but i would like to know you….
    Welcome to this Hill! Thank you for being here today….

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  6. Beth from Still Life Pond Avatar
    Beth from Still Life Pond

    ((( Grace )))

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  7. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Truth .. the hard truth shared here with such open honesty is not an easy read. All this crazy climate change has caused such tremendous heartache for so many. Grace you have my prayers for sunny tomorrows so that like you said things can get fixed that need fixing. I know your family would totally agree that you’re all dependent on each other .. so you need not worry about that.

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  8. Jan Avatar
    Jan

    Dear Grace…..thinking of you with every rainfall and cold winter day….here so close to you…..wanting to send you warmth and comfort…..

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  9. maria Avatar
    maria

    grace i’m here aswell give a warm hug in these cold wet day’s , day’s of changing of beïng allert ,day’s to hold yourself toghetter , i know ,all words …words.. that is wath we as people do/have to give words on our feelings and situation , the rest of the words go talk in my head/mind , stil to sit down and breath and feel the connection in love energie and trust , we know how to handled

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  10. Donna Avatar
    Donna

    Finally figured out what you were saying reminded me of. Wabi Sabi a Japanese philosophy of the beauty of change, Impermanence, and aging and imperfection.That’s not exactly what it is but it captures in my mind what we humans grapple with as Gaia goes about her work . Growing beauty in that spore fungus ? In the bathroom. , the moss creeping and covering the gravel walk . Us as we age , get grey , bent and weak. And arthritic.
    Yes dear Grace. To me it is living in this world with authenticity. Everything is connected. Everything changes. Pay attention.

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  11. Liz A Avatar
    Liz A

    this reminds me of the woman scientist in The Overstory … but on a far more practical level, I worry for your health and wellbeing

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    unless you
    live it
    it’s hard to understand.
    am so hoping for resolution of the tree fall…..
    a huge undertaking. and snow
    i never had thought
    about how that would factor in to living Among trees….
    i just never occurred to me. and i guess it wouldn’t have
    changed anything, tho, really………..

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    the plain and simple truth is multifaceted. like a diamond
    all of us are doing our Best
    for the well being of the Whole
    if there ever
    were a moment when i said
    i can’t
    the response would be immediate. But i’ve never said that
    because it’s never happened. But it’s time for the
    list.

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    it’s been an unusual Rain Season…maybe signaling those to come? maybe, so will do what is needed to be prepared.
    really….the Practice is perfect for this. THIS is perfect for the practice.
    i would just like to come to your house and sit with you,
    smile into each other’s eyes, we would understand
    so many things just by that, NorthStar…….
    Love and oh such Big Love to you

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  15. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i feel it

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i don’t worry about it, but i factor it in.
    they have lived their entire lives with me…..i am
    the mother
    they know me in a very certain way i feel them.
    watching, knowing, carrying the burden of the imperfection of how it’s all gone but also the pride and satisfaction
    of who we ARE We learn.

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  17. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    just that you are There
    not far north
    is such a comfort

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  18. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    yes. we know how to handle…..to be still and sit down
    breathe with EachOther
    you are far
    but you are also just Here. Near. Close.
    part of my life

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  19. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    i love your mind, Donna….your sensitivity and
    connection
    Thank you for it….for witnessing.
    that is a beauty FULL gift

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  20. grace Forrest Avatar
    grace Forrest

    well….health i am attentive to anything out of the
    ordinary???? that’s all i can do
    wellbeing
    my well being is from so many other things, this Being in
    the bathroom….is just
    a Being in the bathroom. We will rip out the floor in
    the summer and replace and it will no longer be hospitable. Will become a memory

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