windthread

i woke this morning after a cool night.  to a cool morning.    finally.   and with a fully formed PLAN i loved so much ,  to send to Kamala Harris.   I thought it was brilliant.   It rose from all about that town in Ohio,  Springfield,   how she could use the complex challenges there to    show    as in,      demonstrate to       the American people how her proposals could       work.    so i made my tea and  continued  thinking and felt so     good        and it was cool ,        and soon i clicked on the fact that this was what i'd been     wondering    a while now,  to understand my recent  uhhhh,   state of mind,  of spirit …..to understand what's happened this summer,   since that evacuation  the second day of July when the days then resulted in the death of the Garden,  when  it just kept being over 100 degrees day unto day and i felt so….Something    i could not name.    But it had hold of me.    So,  thinking all this,   i  did the thing with/for the Goats and Minnow and Puppy,  i waited at Jack's gate for Uno and Dos,  finally coming up and back in to cook…my favorite thing of all….the french fries  and pan fried Snapper   condiments of ketchup and Sriracha for the fries and Elote (no cheese) for the Snapper  and everything was great and i had a very doable To Do list for the day but i would take a quick nap…one of the 20 minute ones      i'd just begun drifting off when there was that unmistakable sound of the FIRE ALERT…..the Watch Duty and almost simultaneously sirens coming up Olive Highway just "over there"…

it was 1 and a quarter miles away from here.   7 acres.   But the sirens multiplied and within minutes an Update of the alert…Air assistance and again almost simultaneously,  the planes flying overhead,  helicopters       skip the middle      within an hour or so had grown to 80 acres but the wind took it in another direction from the Hill  so i looked at the app map….and yes…the yellow of  Evacuation Warning   and yes…here in the OSE zone….Oscar Sam Elephant….but not our number and the call from Alyssia that she was on her way  and when she got here she said that if i went just up to the top of the hill here to that little meadow just over there,  i could watch them do their thing….could see the water and retardant pouring down as they fly in spirals over the Fire   but i didn't want to see it.    I had no will.    I gathered a few things to load if our OSE became yellow.    

a FEW.

a very FEW.      

way less than ever before.    the pencils.  that one spiral drawing book.   the "fire proof"  Go Bag with important papers,  my proof of existence….of a life…..   the Tina quilt,  the Web from LaceLady   my pillow  Batteries and lap top.    That's it except for the above and the 3 little Tay drawings from the Altar.   the Butterfly calendar.     

we sat.   watching the updates,  listening to all going overhead.   Throwing the ball for Minnow.   Keeping Puppy around by talking to her.  Awareness of where Goats were,  ready to call them.  Jenny called from  work in Chico where she was also watching the Fire app….ready to leave.    Jeff picked up Emrie from school.    we watched.  listened.   our ears pricked.   on alert.  and finally,  Forward Progress was stopped at 80 acres          and then after some more time,   Alyssia went home to cook dinner for the kids.   It's  11:11 pm.        Tomorrow i'll Begin Again.