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this little pad.  She called it a tablet.  Looking for the instructions of the space heater…there it was…bottom back of the drawer.  I haven't seen it since New Mex.    Thought for sure it'd gotten lost in the shuffle.    

was my grandmother's.   My father,  grand father and a man named Mr. Curtis built the house we moved to,  from the apartment in Detroit,  when I was probably 6.   It was two story but the first was built into the hill,  it's front half,  only the windows above ground.  Back,  open.  Half of that downstairs was like an apartment where my grandparents lived.  My  father's parents.   Other half  garage,  work shop / laundry room.  In order to get there,  you had to walk through their living room and kitchen area.  In the narrow space of the kitchen there was a large ornate brass free standing bird cage.  It did have a dome cage cover but that was rarely in place.  It was just a  circle platform with a large perch.   Where Polly hung out.   My grandfather had worked on the Panama Canal as an electrician in the early years of their marriage.  Brought him back as a gift for my grandmother.  He was big.    Now and then when I was going through,  she would stop me.   Show me how if she gave him a pencil he would take it with his foot,  lift it and snap it in two with his beak.   On the way back through she'd stop me again and ask me if I wanted to shake hands with Polly.  The answer had to be yes.  So as instructed i'd extend my index finger and she would take hold of my hand,  lift it up and Polly would take it in his foot,  lean his head down,  the pupils of his eyes dilating/contracting rapidly …hesitate and then shake my hand ,  his crazy cackle  and say Hello.    My finger was the size of the pencil.   This same walk through area,  a drop leaf table with a drawer.   Where this pad and a few pencils were kept,  she sharpened the pencil with a pocket knife,  it's point was square and blunt.  When she'd write on the  little pad,  she'd first touch the point of the pencil to the tip of her tongue.  Was for her grocery list.  I always loved it.  Something about it.   I love it now.  same something about it.   3×5  an unrefined paper,  kinda the color of unbleached coffee filters,  and come to think of it,  the paper is kinda like that too.   Do these pads still exist?  Does anyone know?   Maybe it's the last one in the world.

 

 

 

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10 responses to “lost and found”

  1. Nancy Avatar

    Grace~ To have had this pad of paper all of these years is amazing to me. How did it never get used up?! Well, because the memories were just too rich for it to disappear. I’m sure there was more to those living arrangements, but in this moment I think how nice that the elders were thought of, made space for. And the bird, where the answer had to be yes…did it frighten you – the big sounds and the fact that your finger was the size of those broken pencils? What a scene you’ve shared here. I can so remember the touching the pencil to the tongue. Makes me wonder why/how/when that started. (((hugs)))

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  2. Donna Avatar
    Donna

    I laughed out loud when I read the part about your finger being the same size as that pencil Polly would snap in half. I’m smiling even as I write.
    What a wonderful enchanted childhood you had.

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  3. jude Avatar
    jude

    reminds me of the little rolls off paper from my dad’s adding machine. i kept those. things change so much.

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  4. grace Forrest Avatar

    love the link….there’s just so much to know…and how someone knows it all and its
    there
    to find……
    my guess them combining resources is how they were able to
    do it. and yes…there was a LOT more to the living arrangements. the grandmother was not a nice person. and
    yes…I was. frightened. Polly did other things like walk back and forth on the window sill…crouching, wings outspread saying….
    Im gonna get the little birdies
    about the sparrows in the bushes out there

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  5. grace Forrest Avatar

    now its a big question…understanding about
    paper
    does this kind exist anymore??????????

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  6. Dana Avatar

    What an engaging story about Polly and the pencil and the finger. The atmosphere of that kitchen, sort of warm and nostalgic and sort of scary, is thick in the air. My grandmother licked her pencil too.

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  7. dee Avatar

    Thank you for this walk through childhood. So vivid. The details of a knife-sharpened pencil, licked before use, were both funny and familiar. It was brave of you to give Polly your finger.

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  8. Carol Avatar
    Carol

    Such a wonderful memory to share. A tablet. My gram also had a tablet for her lists. Groceries were the main subject . I kept one of the lists that I found when closing up her house. It was full of very basic items, coffee, flour, sugar, milk. At the end of the list was “ice cream” with a side note, “ vanilla, for Pa”. I love that note. I appreciate the reminder of “tablets”.

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