windthread

i've been in Chicago every night this week.   Amidst so many people experiencing the concept of     JOY,  maybe for the first time in a while.   Have loved watching,  listening,   then reading about what   i watched and listened to….the little details,  for one….this is for Nancy…how music was selected for each speaker,  tailored to their specifics,  my favorite being  as Tim Walz leaves the stage after his speech,  one of   "his favorite songs."…..Neil Young    Rockin in the Free World…..whod've guessed,  right?   As much as who was speaking,  i loved the faces in the crowd      it's been an alternate universe

and here,  to begin each of these days….this drawing,   just a few marks at a time but wanting to acknowledge What It IS.  They have come back every day after some days of a month gone with the intense heat…the two Friends.   small lizards,  Uno and Dos.   I'll talk about it more later.   It's almost done Enough.   

A little over a year ago i spoke outloud about wishing for a Therapy Group to help me come to terms with  "not having become a writer or an artist".   Out of the Blue,   Wendy,   Wendy Golden Levitt,  signaled her willingness to facilitate.   And so…the twice a month ZOOM    Gatherings at the Well    began.   My wish came true and so much beyond that.   We speak and listen,  listen and speak,  exploring our lives,  our hearts,   our joys and sorrows,  all the as yet unknowns.    Each of us brings  our own unique stories and we have found that there is so much Common Ground.  Working with Wendy is an opportunity of a lifetime.  She is brilliant,  deeply caring and very REAL.  She helps us find our  truth and our still point as we enter and move through the Elder years of our lives.      A Jungian Therapist who brings all the wisdom of a lifetime of work with womens' groups  around the planet,  with severely traumatized children,   with love and humor and Care.  

She has asked  that we let others know that as of September there will be two openings to bring our number to 12,  enhancing our group and creating even more loving energy.   Nancy has also put this invitation out on Pomegranate Trail.   If you are interested…have questions….email me  or Nancy Erisman  and we can put you in touch with her.   

Love and Love,

now back i go to the DNC

it was difficult to find this.    And then,  it was difficult to try to understand        WHY     i so much needed to find it.   See it.   What would it help me understand?    It's taking time to  "listen" for the answers to those questions.   I  posted  it last night so it would be waiting for me when i woke this morning….but it was gone.     And then,  this Day had a mind of its own.   So tonight i begin again.   With just the image.   words tomorrow.

so much converges here.    

The lama from Tibet…Gelek Rinpoche,   Jewel Heart Temple,  the early 80s,  Ann Arbor Michigan.   "Everything has a front and a back.   The bigger the front,   the bigger the back".    

Those two lizards down at Jack Flash's Gate.  Uno and Dos.   Who for 2 years now,  i have met each morning,  except in months like these last 2 when they go elsewhere because of the heat.    How we have over time come to  KNOW eachother.   How they have taught me about my mind.   How i have learned to free my "consciousness"  from my Self.   How i have learned that it is possible to meet   Out There.     The sense of it is that what i am used to,   is …….this is hard to say……being INSIDE my self.  As if my awareness is just behind my face.    But when i meet with them,   it is OUT there  beyond me,   in the space that is free to everything and for everything,  where the exchange between us can happen.  Where we      ARE.

i needed to find this photograph because i remember understanding something about this so many years ago when i was all lost in Falconing….the relationship between free bird and human.   Wanting to learn that,  not to hunt,  but to fly one,  to be in relationship with a peregrine.   What i saw in this photograph….the deep Willingness of the bird to connect.

Everything has a front and a back.   conversely,   the back has a      Front.      These days of excessive heat.  Days on end of  near 105 degrees.   Finding self so much just squatting,  breathing.    Looking long,    long.    with no reason    at anything and everything.    gravel of the road up,  dried broken leaves,   forms of dry earth.  and with the Evacuation,  the death of the Garden,   now no longer  reprieve from it all.    just looking.   and coming OUT from behind my face.   into relationship with two specific trees that had just before been    just trees.      the front of the Back.

i love this photograph,  this bird.   its tender stark  Beauty of what it IS.   the exquisite result of Evolution,   born to be what it IS and being that so absolutely perfectly.    Their stoop in flight….200 mph.   Think of it.   200 mph.      

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• it started like this

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• un intended.         Just being,  morning Being.     Looking at nothing.   Being  lost in thought.   and then
• noticing
• this magic show just right before my eyes.      and      This is    what i mean by "magic".    Real things        that     occur unintended,  un imagined ,  so often   Missed
• i want to Open my Self to the possibility of their occurrence …in any moment,   IF   i  can learn to be  present to receive.

how there is so much beauty….just small things…"small"  things…like how these things,  hanging together on that pvc pipe curtain rod  across this "room"            the Michelle dress and a shirt received in the mail….,   their colors first this morning and then deepening/lessening/deepening  throughout the day,    watching that happen ,   how the Sun illuminated Michelle and changed the relationship of the two  

there is Beauty  and    peace     that arises from     that     Beauty   that is Given and just Arises and 

for you

if  you take the time to notice

since it wasn't happening,   i thought           Why Not?    Just to feel what it would be like?