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Goats at Camelot.   me puppy minnow at Alyssia's.    Fire is zero contained,  zero predictable.    More later as it is known.

Love and Love to All 

we are at EVAC WARNING.   Getting ready to load up.   

the face,   arm,   hand      2023    in the Sketch Book         and today   i add    the      Essential Beings.       My      Mark.    i put it on all the fiber figures i made,  on all those angels i made.   said      my mark.      What do i    mean?      is it a      mark?….OR   is it a depiction of something more than that?    

 

zucchini  fritters    round two.    with ketchup and Huy Fong Sriracha 

it began like any other,    wake,  become upright,  make Tea,  drink Tea,   watch daylight unfold,   feed Goats,  Cook,  feed self,   Little Sleep,  20 minutes,  second Tea

like any other but then i took up the Sketch Book,   noticing how few pages are left in this one and turned to the first.    and it spiraled from there.    In?   or   Out?,  the spiral?   what's the difference?    First some pages have printouts  glued in of  Still in New Mexico…August,  2016     Beginning about the Old Apricot Tree     i didn't look at many pages, really,  skimmed through till more recent….but those skimmed pages are YEARS.   and i remembered something Beth said….Still Life Pond….   "I don't think in words"   and  how many times i have remembered her saying that…DID SHE REALLY?, say that?   I  emailed her to find out     and it mattered because i thought how when i "heard" her say that i was…..REALLY?!!!   yes!!!!   i don't either!!!!    and i spent time with that and realized i think in Pictures…like that thing i have about it all being like a Slide Show…the pictures projected on the blank wall…click,  click,  click         and it's how it was….tryinging to think about August 2016

where was I?    

and then….when   did i Get HERE?    and i had to go back through so many clicks of the slide show     But the pic here.    The Magic Diaries Cloth i think?     on       that       Wall     i used to have in New Mexico

and maybe this all is also connected to Emrie's questions about why i live in this little place with no working microwave…she had a lot of questions       I tried to tell her about the house in New Mexico

all these words          all these words       all this         thinking           how i don't do this much anymore and how much a relief it is really,   that  it's all just        stuff,  really….           Beauty FULL  stuff   but Stuff.     and as an aside,  i realized somewhere in all this i realized that it's all          documented          in the thing of this sidebar Archives

i went there and saw                Emrie just born         Emrie,      why i came here.   born July 2017

i said she didn't need to  "pose",    that it was the carrot i wanted the pic of…….

we were Curious and it won out….one for her,  one for me and this one we brought up for Alyssia when she came.   Such a BRIGHT CLEAR    Carrot y    taste  even at this beginning.    We talked about how amazing that is….that time after time after time,  the seed will give       the carrot.