windthread

well into the Dark time,    

it 

rained.       end of the month of June…..it rained.    maybe 3 minutes           Sudden,   the sound and then…the smell        RAIN

and   like the flick of a switch….ON   OFF.     Big    drops      like these.            ?

 

outside B Garden….looking In and Up

 

inside B Garden looking Out and  Up                         Thinking.   It's called    Climate Crisis.   not      climate change.    i think about Joanna Macy.     

i hesitate to say much about Fire Season.    i refer to Evacs.    not a lot.     In fire season you think about evac every day.   just quietly….it's just    there.    I'm used to it.    i think if it were just me,  a cat and a dog,   i wouldn't think much.     the Goats  make the difference.   Loading them and hooking up the trailers  takes all of us.    Jenny and her man from Chico,   Alyssia from across town.   Jeff, now that he's there can help.   and we try to be ready. 

These last couple years…..we've become a little uhhhh,   complacent?     With Watch Duty,   the so great Fire App ,  more info,  so much less guess work…anxiety.     with Butte County contracting with Cal Fire.   All their Fire Science and Know How not to mention equipment,      and     Believing that  "Paradise"  won't happen again.   Fires start all the time.    Sometimes there will be 3  Alerts,   3 fires burning  "nearby"  in a day.    there's almost always one.   Updates every half hour or so until we read  Contained.    Often,   within hours.   Cal Fire is    "ON IT".        this one,  Apache Fire…Palermo,   grasslands as in for cattle grazing,   16 miles away.   Began Monday at 30 acres.  Became 673 and remained through the night.   into today   until it held at 691.     No  updates all day til this eve 7:07      691 acres 25% contained.    and that's where it stands.

 

SOMETHING HAPPENED HERE…i lost one pic and a couple paragraphs…so   going to cut to the chase.   

 

Beth and i are doing Sharon Salzberg's  online 10 day live Teaching         Equanimity.     How perfect can all this be?

i was going to say some things about it here but  Inet   seems sensitive…so won't,    but she gives the images of

Not a scale that balances    but rather a    gyroscope.              Enough.   Tonight will be for sleeping.   might as well.     One more thing.     IF   we are gathering Goats,   hooking up,     I WILL VERY CLEARLY SAY THAT.       But for all the rest….,   it's just how things are       until the Rain.    October,  November?    i'll try not to talk about it much.  Because there's no point.   It's climate CRISIS    and we,   as a people ,  have no Will   to face it,  to do anything that might be done.   And so…. there  we have it.   Ok.  

 

no neeed to check maps…or worry

i will talk about it later this eve……clarify how it just IS …..fire season.    

Love and Love

 

 

 

a Beauty Full thing that happened in the compost.    like a sculpture…if of wood or stone   or clay    

it's 10:30      i'm  awake.     listening for the very distinctive sound of the Alert from the Fire App.     every  15 minutes or so

they name the fires according to roads nearby.   This,  the Apache Fire.   There are 3 levels.    Ready   Set   GO     i am in ready.

 

so.     What the lizards have taught me.    the two of them,  Uno and Dos   who i have met/meet at Jack Flash's gate every morning no later than 11am             what they have taught,  among many other things,   is      motion.    Awareness.   Awareness of motion.     even the slightest.    something is    Alive.   Is living it's life.  In the same space…..as you      are     living your life.   NOTICE

 

i am resting in the faux adirondack chair.    i have Given   the Happy Frog fertilizer to all the tomatoes,  egg plants,  melon,  beans, cucumbers,  bell peppers.     it's hot.   i rest.        And there is the slightest motion,   an airy kind of motion and i look down,  just where my foot is             there,   this so excellent  and  BeautyFull   Being        who i had seen once before in the bed of the leafy greens but not since         again           here              and we breathed   together     sharing space      sharing   LIFE     sharing this  earth i call Garden

it's past midnight.    Minnow is out there in the dark.     She is AWARE of space,  of Claim.    Something     that has intention for Puppy's food in the Curry House      she senses.   cannot see but can sense and rushes out to say   NO

today i miss OOna and Arctica   who were Lead Goats,    talked long with Alyssia about the herd,  about how now,  there is no Lead.   No   Boss .    How it affects the herd.   there is some disarray.

i live on a Hill   in Northern California.   I am     one    of many     who live here.    WE.    

following Liz's  man's  lead,    i ordered.     and as i read the  pkging,  i saw that FoxFarm is almost a neighbor…Arcata!   So,  bright and early tomorrow morning…..am so Happy to offer this to all the plants that are working so so hard to respond to my big Ask.   

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from 2022              

next month it will be a year we have Gathered at the Well.    Wishes do come true.     Wendy.   Wendy Golden Levitt    Jungian Therapist.    Guided by Wendy's loving hand.   

i no longer drag that bag along behind me.      The BeautyFULL unruly Spiral remains,  i go.    circle.   begin again     Go   circle begin again.   Here is always Here.

enlarge the pic to see the Magic     

don't know till i  post it….what the pic will actually look like?    but in the            moment        it was just so 

magic.    when it was actually just the slight leak of the hose,   spraying out    on    "weeds"

 

from    Us

this.   is Good.    really   really   Good.

collaged photographs from National Geographic