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it went fast.

woke at 5 am for the Gathering at the Well.   After which i left for Alyssia's for our DINNER….We COOKED  and were just Who We  Are.    It was

a

very good day.    home.   in time to feed Goats.   before dark.           Enough.    2023

was looking for something i could not identify,  just needed to look.   and saw how many times i have repeated this figure,  this Energy over years and maybe those words…claiming agency say it best.    and i saw and Felt       how i don't have the urge to continue.   I wondered….who……would i draw now?   how would the woman be different?    There wasn't enough time to think about this today and not tomorrow either.  But i look forward to asking the question again and see what the answer might be.  There are just some few days left of  77.   

today was pie day.   Apple.   It's interesting,   no electricity.   which ordinarily doesn't matter much at all  because you are used to it.   but then…when you are making a lattice top for a PIE ,   for the Saturday Dinner,    and you need to see…..

but it's all ok    and just……ok.  Pie gets done.

April.   according to both the Calendar and the archives here.   i discovered the healing of the thing i have going on with my toes….which has become a painful winter season challenge to both body and Spirit.   For a couple months ?  I think?   i used the leaves twice a day as poultice  and the toes healed completely.   Became again,  just regular old toes and i quit.   Not noting in either place when that was.   Went on a while using the herbal salve from the woman i found in Paradise,  but  though it has everything else,  no plantain.  And Gum Weed oil. at her suggestion,    and then quit that.     All has been well until out of the blue…the other day….it all was THERE again.   I remembered seeing those green green very healthy plants down by the creek….i think i said something about that here???   They are mature.  Not the spring plants of B Garden  i'd used and i wondered how they might be for learning to make my own salve but never went forward with that.   So on the way back from town today,  these leaves.   Will try them as poultice again.    There's a ton of info on YouTube about making the salve.   Time to learn.   Like some other things.  Time to learn.   

for no reason.   There's a couple zip locks in the big basket on the other bench…very small scraps…..

it felt good to touch them.

looking out into the Doe Forest the words come into the mind….the play of light.

i think,    Notice         the      play of light.

and if     you     Notice   the play of light,  do you just notice?  and go on with whatever?,   or   do you stay.   Noticing.   a

while

and how long might that while be?   and what if it ,    off and on,   fills a day?    or two?    or three,   or?

Stuff can take time.   How much do we want to give it?,   are Willing to give?   and then,  it "starts up"…mind asks…Why?   What's it FOR,   noticing the play of light?     there's no answer.   so what if you just do it.   see what happens

Jenny came and we got things done.    Rain Season is close.   Cleaned out the Rain House so it's ready for the first layers of bedding straw.   Re routed the water run off channel  at Jack's Feed Shed.  Moved and broke up the small tree that fell there,  added to the pile on the other side of the road up that's for  when  next we rent a chipper.  and here,

moved Nogal's calf hutch in to Jack's place.   In the back of the pic…his tarp tent that's his rain house which he loves.  It stays dry,  magically somehow,  is in a perfect position to shield from wind blown storms and he loves it because it's open at both ends.  I'm thinking that the hutch might work for those times when there is no break in the rain.   They will not eat wet hay.  It's close enough to the gate for me to toss  a chunk inside,  where even if he won't go in,  he can stick his head in to eat????  It's worth a try.   Little things matter a lot.   

and conversation.   like…do i or do i not want more chickens?   That one is forever ongoing.   I do,  because  eggs just OutSide are such a WonderFull thing.   I don't because everything comes with a down side….free range chickens are,  well free range.  and get into everything,   into everybody's business.   Coops require a lot of maintenance…cleaning.  And draw predators.   in general,  chickens are drama.   and,  we talked about food.  the new Jamaican restaurant in Chico and my recent big fail with macaroni and cheese.    She is hoping her change in position at work will allow for more flexibility.   I hope.  I and this Hill have missed her.    She's smart,   strong and Able.    It was a good day.

this gossamer silk       on some edges and as here,  inside…..felted with wool.    such surprising   satisfyingly deep visual and tactile experience

from Yvette's hand  and heart….many many years ago and being perfect now

i DID begin again today.   and surprised.   When last i sat with the long mala,  it seemed so much.   Today,  not at all.     I think about what has changed.   ..only me.

it had hung on the curtain rod of the big window of that tin house in Polvadera New Mexico,   the one that was the window to the Rim of the world to the West and and today as i held it,  that view was still Inside it,  the view,  the window,   the Rim,  New Mexico still.   Just as it was.   This helps me understand…..Time.

i began the day with cleaning the Altar .    This,  the far corner….Snoop Dog's corner.  I've had a crush on him for so long.  Him and the Our Lady 7 Day candle from New Mex,  long empty          And i thought why not,   i went to YouTube  Doggyland,  his Affirmations Song .   This morning on NPR   headline:  One of the world's most famous stoners has announced he's giving up the ganja

the mission of the day was to see if i could find my mala.   I was thinking of the old old wrist mala.   And i found it  AND the long one that i'd almost forgotten i have…i never used it much,  it's long.   A LOT of repititions,   a LOT of prayer,  a LOT of no distraction .   They were with things in the vehicle Evacuation bin.  Yes.

now i have them both.  Again,  i say.   I am Ready       Tomorrow,  i'll begin.