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leaves and roots.  Roots mostly.  This Cloth is very difficult to photograph.  it's wide.  And to picture it,  it needs to be from a distance.  But then,  the roots don't so much appear,  being delicate as roots are.  But,  here,  maybe if you double click?

Someone was out there calling.  I wasn't sure who,  and let it go awhile but it went on beyond awhile and when i went There i found Tenzen,  over on his side,  at an odd angle,  slant,  his whole body,  up against the fence between him and Nogal.  He couldn't right himself.  Struggling,  calling,   his eyes all wide.  I knelt and put my hand in,  under his shoulder and with not much at all,  gave him what he needed to stand.  It was an Incident.  The rest of the day,  he was his usual self.  At evening feed,  his usual self.  so,  a reprieve.  But usual self anymore means an Old Buck,  crippled by arthritis and damage from all the exchanges buck goats have with eachother,  the Chingasos…in spanish…don't know if that's spelled right…but phonetically, it works,  the really HARD whacks they insist on inflicting on one another in the interest of just how it is,  nothing personal.

so i sewed on this Looking Cloth,  Altar Cloth,  to ease all of this.  And it did.  

Tomorrow is another day.

 

 

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6 responses to “at loose ends”

  1. jaime Avatar
    jaime

    It is sad to watch our families grow old – anticipatory grieving. I send love so you can have energy to keep loving him in the now.

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  2. Mo Crow Avatar

    (((Tenzen))) (((Grace))) love the gentle power of stitch to heal our hearts

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  3. Michelle Slater Avatar

    Dear, dear old fellow. Love to him, and to you. The new cloth is coming along nicely. Everything quite visible.

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  4. Liz A Avatar

    I double-clicked, then zoomed in some more (a wonderful feature of my new laptop is the touch screen that enables that) … the word “liminal” floated into my mind, but I wasn’t sure, so I checked m-w.com and found these definitions:
    of, relating to, or situated at a sensory threshold : barely perceptible or capable of eliciting a response // liminal visual stimuli
    2 : of, relating to, or being an intermediate state, phase, or condition : in-between, transitional // in the liminal state between life and death
    so yes, more so than I realized …

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  5. joanne Avatar
    joanne

    Anticipatory Grieving. Something for me to think about today as it rains–all day. I feel that with Riley. Each panic attack as he loses his grip on …..life? the intermediate state between life and death. We do what we can to ease his fear. So, I felt it also for Tenzen. and you who have know him so long.

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  6. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Well maybe an explanation: last night, rain came, raining all day today and for next several days. Felt restless so before going to sleep, got on laptop and looked at old cloth dye works, images from bundles, solar dyeing and experiments from 2012, 2013, 2014 etc. stopped at a cloth made with steel wool, oak bark strips, splotches of glue (I was experimenting) and dried pieces of mango. When cloth unbundled, I was startled to see what looked like an image of a goat…ghost goat. Last photo that I looked at last night before closing laptop…now, this news of Tenzen…

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