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at the bottom of the meadow.   the fence along Carefree Way.  On the right,  the large pieces,  mostly pine.  some oak from a downed oak branch when the large pine branch fell and broke it off.   The neighbor,  Dave,  will want the oak.  The pine not.    The pile of brush,  not.   Those will be run through a rented chipper.    All this wood.  and we can't burn.   Dave has an actual house.  They heat with wood.   The pic that's missing is of the SLED that we use to move things.   Jenny's best buy of 2021.    Too hard to explain,  but i'll take a pic.   It might be useful to others.   It is GRAND.   there's a big one that did this job and then i have a small one for my purposes.  Makes moving heavy things simple and easy.    This is one BRANCH of a Foothill Pine.  A very old tree and how it goes for them in their old age when they can no longer support those huge branches that break off in the wind simply of their own weight, and gravity.     leaving a wound in the Mother that begins to rot with winter rains,  termites.   This was cut last weekend,  hauled to the fence today.

 

 


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Where it was.   Fire Fuel.   Multiply this maybe 100 times and we will be good.

and then….T's mother and Casey came.   Near the end of that work.   From Sacramento. She now lives where Jeff used to live with T and Brinley.    She is Grama Nee.  Renee.   Casey is T's younger brother who she had had guardianship for.  Some years.   Before Jeff came into the picture.   He is in his early 20's.  A medical error had left him blind and severely brain damaged.  He has no language.   Jeff and T took care of him.   Now,  his mother,  grama Nee,   is trying.  Prior to T's death,  she was distant.  From T.  From Casey.  From Brinley.    now there's Circumstance.   How it will go remains to be seen,  but so far,  ok.   Today he was able to get out of the van.  Walk down the creek road.  Everyone but me went.   i am for whatever reason of my own that i can't yet describe…i am keeping my distance from all this.  But they were here.   She colored at the picnic table with the kids,  including Emrie.   Alyssia didn't come.    i stayed distant from that also.   I watch my  Self.   

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16 responses to “today”

  1. jude Avatar

    I know this distance, the choice. Just how it is. Because I have one. We all do.
    The land looks delicious in its natural order.

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  2. Liz A Avatar

    the cycle of tree to land to tree … how worms are such an integral part of that endless cycle, their small selves working alongside the fungal/mycelial network, turning massive wood into fine soil … ever so slowly preparing it to receive the next seed …
    and yes, the choosing … I too find myself holding back when I used to always rush in … is it age or Covid or both?

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  3. Patty M Avatar

    As my dear grandma would say, “That’s certainly a big job of work you did”.
    It feels as if Spring is pulling, pulling the earth round to Spring and it’s
    slow coming. New birds are singing in the yard so I know change is coming.
    YEAY!

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  4. CatherinE Avatar

    I specialize in distance. Sometimes I think too much, but who knows. I use a wheelbarrow to move heavy things, but a sled sounds like a good idea, closer to the ground to begin with.

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  5. Yvette Avatar

    I remember the sled 🛷
    I practice distance
    It is quietly

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  6. Joanne in Maine Avatar
    Joanne in Maine

    Distance. A good thing. Until one sees how it will go…. or not go.

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  7. Nancy Avatar

    Ah, the distance. I’ve gotten much better at it. That knowing when to go in trying and when to hang back. Wish I knew this years ago, but as Liz questions…I think it’s age and covid and maybe some learned wisdom. Maybe.
    I thought of your Green, your home a lot on yesterday’s drive. xo

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  8. grace Forrest Avatar

    the
    choice
    is Very Interesting

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  9. grace Forrest Avatar

    i think it’s learning enough of some stuff, needing to learn more of other stuff.
    age, sorta, we have limited time now

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  10. grace Forrest Avatar

    Patty…your hand….

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  11. grace Forrest Avatar

    i have NOT specialized in distance.
    i love those words…i specialize in distance…i smile
    it’s really astoundingly efficient and PLEASANT. The
    wheelbarrows just cannot work on this HILL

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  12. grace Forrest Avatar

    Yvette, my northStar….quietly practicing distance,
    quietly
    that’s what i did.

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  13. grace Forrest Avatar

    and realizing that that’s not for me to involve self in

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  14. grace Forrest Avatar

    don’t think this is much about Covid…although it helps
    All the years till now….i did what i felt i needed to
    do. Now…i don’t feel like i NEED to….i can pass the
    baton.

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  15. dee Avatar

    California light, that’s the first thing. Then the drama of the life cycle, as we ourselves are wounded, fall, get more damaged, picked up or burned or not. As for distance, I just want to say, you’re entitled.

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  16. grace Forrest Avatar

    and i thank you for saying. I feel selfish.

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