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typepad has lost so many words.  so i will just let that be.   LOSS.   it's HUGE.   but….not.    I am hanging all  my life on some kind of line that i don't understand,   don't know.   i am empty.  full of some substance.  at the same time.   i am LOST  without Her.  I don't know how to live.  i need to learn.

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23 responses to “loss”

  1. maria Avatar
    maria

    salty tears in my eyes , heart pain ,
    love hug in trust

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  2. jude Avatar

    She’s there. Let her become your guide.

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  3. susan Avatar
    susan

    Dear Grace
    Love lasts, your love for Tay and her love for you, that will enfold you all, words can’t express enough but these I offer from my heart.
    from Bowen Island

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  4. Marti Avatar
    Marti

    Querida Tay, Querida grace,
    grief slams us with such a wound, even when expected, it comes and in those moments, we are hollowed out, numb, and hurting, filled with unrelenting sorrow…
    the day will come when you will feel a presence, a gentle lifting of the hairs on the back of your neck, a warm breath, your heart will skip a beat and you will know a spirit has come alongside of you and THEN you will know how to live again. You will feel her loss, for it never leaves but it is wrapped up in love and moments of togetherness, of adventures and of sitting quietly beside and the air flows gently for your companion, your partner, your guardian of the Hill, TAY, has come and with all that I know, have experienced and believe, I know this will be so grace.
    Sending love to you and la familia and especially, sharing in our memories of the times we were with you and Tay.

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  5. Deb Avatar

    Empty comes first. As if they take the tides of your life with them leaving a space you think will never fill.
    Memories seep in and you live on.
    xox and again
    Good dog, Tay.

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  6. Cynthia Avatar
    Cynthia

    It hurts so much .. the huge loneliness that seems unimaginable and yet is tangible.. the desire to touch .. to actually feel your loved one.. the good thing.. great thing about love.. having loved .. having shared life is that as Marti and Deb said empty comes first. You continue and gradually spaces fill .. and unexpectedly you are able to smile with the memories..to be more at ease with the rearrangement of your world and to be glad you had the gift of sharing so many things.. but it takes time and it is hard. Take comfort in those small hands placing rocks.. in the sharing with loved ones when you can..thoughts and words seem so small here.. but they are here for Tay ..for all of you and they are so filled with love. Gentle day Grace

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  7. Deb G Avatar

    You will, because she is there with you still, just in a different way. I have been thinking of Briar so much because of your posts, and Lola too, this week. So much love to you…

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  8. Mo Crow Avatar

    Fly Free (((Tay))) brave heart

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  9. Cindy Avatar
    Cindy

    This hurts our hearts and we love you all.

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  10. Yvette Avatar

    TAY…
    It hurts so so much
    What Cynthia wrote… Take comfort in those small hands placing rocks….

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  11. Tina Avatar
    Tina

    Oh Grace .. I am so sorry 😢

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  12. kirsten Avatar
    kirsten

    at times like this there are no words that can replace the emptiness around us. only allow it to wash over us.
    my heart aches for your loss

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  13. Liz A Avatar

    for as long as I have known you there has been Tay … I am so sad for you and yours, and for all of us who join you here, that she is no longer on this plane of existence …

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  14. JULIANNE TERRILL Avatar
    JULIANNE TERRILL

    I am weeping for a dog I never knew.

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  15. Jan Rowan Avatar
    Jan Rowan

    Dear Grace……I love you….and the love will keep flowing to you and Tay and all those that loved such a precious being…….Tay was so fortunate to be in such a loving relationship with you……the relationship continues and always will continue……

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  16. dee Avatar

    I am so very sorry Grace.

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  17. Nancy Avatar

    The loving words of the others here before me, speak for me too.
    So, I shall just send more love.
    xoxo

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  18. jaime Avatar
    jaime

    Be gentle with yourself, Grace. We don’t know how we will get through this kind of pain. It’s ok to not know. But in the meantime be gentle with yourself. It’s ok to feel.
    You are brave.
    You are loved.
    You are not alone.

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  19. Debra A Price Agrums Sposa Avatar
    Debra A Price Agrums Sposa

    Sending you so much love Grace, we are all here with you sending you strength. Tay will always be with you and in your heart.

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  20. Carol Gabbert Avatar
    Carol Gabbert

    So very sad and Heartbroken for you . Please know you are not alone.🙏🏻

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  21. Cindy Avatar
    Cindy

    Thank you, Grace, your words “helplessness brings Help”
    brings Help, love.
    no te rindas

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  22. Dana Avatar

    I remember when Tay came to join you. What a hole her absence must leave in your life. I’m so sorry for your loss Grace.

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  23. Saskia van Herwaarden Avatar

    I am so sorry for your loss Grace

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