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On Being Podcast   today,  3/18/2021     Christine Runyan   What's Happening In Our Nervous Systems

for instance….Beads.   Take or leave….?

the blue s  on the silver fish…czech glass,  an incredible metallic peacock blue/bluegreen/purple somehow

turquoise

 

what would it feel like to be THIS beauty Full…with this wonder full Blue smile…i close my eyes,  put my hands on my face and try to imagine

 

and circle back.    Day ends as Day began.   

with Flicker,  the Tin and in the tin,  of course.  Blue beads…three Blues.  

and buttons made of antler by LaceLady.  a Hand.

 

Nomadland.  I have watched 3 times.  Will watch again.   And i am back to frequenting the Bob Wells UTubes.   

The so loved Honda Car that i lived in for two weeks in the first Evacuation at the fairgrounds…the one that can't seem to be compliant with California's  demands.   It sits down there at the beginning of the road up.  Parked.   the Virus short circuited my search for a mechanic that might work on it.  But in this space of time,  the truth is that finding someone is only one part of the challenge.  The other is finding parts.   1986.  Honda isn't even making them.  So,  to face that reality.    Nevada is close.  New Mex not far.   There is still value there…people are fond of them.  Craigs List.  let it go Live.   We,  and,  really,  Alyssia,  are looking for a used minivan.  the Guru B Wells talks about them being adequate for on road living,  one person…can be found….low mileage  and in well maintained condition….$3000.    I have saved  the two previous stimulus checks.  If this additonal one comes,  am near.  The beloved Toyota Truck Sunny is good for so many things but has such a small seat.  Tay and i fill that   There is no room or way for a car seat for Emrie,  and of course,  Julian.  I can't pick them up for the Farmers Market.  I can't pick them up for anything.   Approaching another round of seasons,  i begin scanning….how to arrange What if i need to LEAVE.   What can i take.     Have gone through many iterations of this already,  from leaving Everything to taking SOME things to less and looking closely if i care.  Do I?  Do I care?   There is no set answer.   Yes,  i care and No,  i can be just ok without.    But if the Hill burned.  The embers would die out.  The smoke would clear and drift away.  I would want to be here. I can live in a minivan.  It can be a home.  Nomadland has reminded me.  I'd forgotten.

 

the opposite bench seat.  across from me,  here at the Everything Table.  Two Cloths now and the folded denim futon cover.  ONLY.   For some long time…2 or 3 months?   a shipping box.  From Lace Lady.   some things taken out,  some remaining.  Today,  All Taken out.

And today was my Freedom day.   My two weeks post second vaccination.   The day i could venture out.   But i've made the decision to wait until Alyssia's second vaccination and then her 2 week wait…which will bring us to April 15.  another 15.

 

Blue.   from Sparkling Lotus.  "The fifth chakra is about clarity.  It's also the spinal column's first energetic opportunity to receive and reflect messages from Spirit on Spirit's own terms"   Acey

"on Spirit's own terms"

 

so.

many things today.  That shipping box on the bench seat….from LaceLady.   I kept waiting.  i didn't know why.  But kept waiting.  I knew that in it was the body of a Flicker that she had come upon long ago in Alaska.   That it had appeared.  No sign of dismay.  Just there and dead.   She did what she knew to do to preserve it and it had been in her shop since.  

she sent it to me.  i'd said.  Flicker,  my life  bird.  and then Crow,  my totem.  She sent it.  All this time i knew.  Today was the day.  and it is here,  it's head bowed in a soft death.   it's body intact but abandoned.  How it is and will always be.  This bird goes ahead of me.

Maybe today was the day because this morning Alyssia messaged me that she had found BOOTS.  On the post of  Feb 23,  LaceLady posted a pic of her boots in the comments   and i had shown Alyssia….these,  i said.   She found them this morning on some FaceBook page.   $30.  Did i want them?…Yes.  so much.  i do want them.  So LaceLady's boots.  Work boots.  and time to open the Flicker Spirit.

and then.

oh,  Then.   Margery Knott who i have been exchanging words with for some time.   Margery Knott.  Has created a web site.  THIS is MORE than i could HOPE for.  I am beyond ecstatic over this.  Beyond.  

trickstershoard.wordpress.com

you will understand when you go there.   i have been dreaming this,  asking this,  not knowing how it might come and here,  today,  from/through her.  More Blue.  really,  more Blue.

and then…as if this was not all Enough,  Deb Haaland  was CONFIRMED by the Senate.  51 to 40.  Deb Haaland,  Secretary of the INTERIOR

so here.  On Spirits own terms.    I am ready.  There is more.  but that can wait till tomorrow.  

Yes.  This was the color of the sky today.   this is about a third of Alyssia's campsite A.  Well,  not really.  There's more from left to right.  A lot.   Where everything is,  was a continuation of the slope of Hill and had been leveled.  4 years ago.   She had wanted to put a very small house there.  the code changed.  it's not big enough.  At the far end of the the pic the land slopes down some into the Meadow.  the Big Meadow.   She is re~envisioning there.  Last weekend we mowed it, this part.   Grasses and Vetch were approaching a foot tall.  THICK and FIERCE.  The Goats take care of the Meadow.    The dark stuff in the foreground is GeoGrid.   Yesterday they came with 3 truck loads of gravel in a pile.  Jenny  will finally lay the geogrid and then with a bobcat slowly fill it with gravel.   This is just on this final part of the road up.   There is very reasonable question  that it won't work.  She is stubborn and determined to try.

 

 

Plumcot.  

i planted Snow Peas at B.  The Madder is very Strong this year.  A mother and 3 young ones.

waking from my 20 minute nap my eyes open to look out the window and screen door to the Rise of this Campsite C,  into the Forest there.  It's stunning.  the LIFE of it.  The Vibrance.   

the Pines on this Hill are Foothill Pines.  Wikipedia says the average height is 60 ft.  But so many of these are much more which leads us to wonder if there has Ever been a full Fire here.  They often have multiple trunks and always long long sprawling branches that extend horizontally and often then arch down.  The sprawling and arching leads to heavy sometimes weakened branches that are prone to holding water from the heavy winter rainfall and will break.  Sometimes falling themselves,  sometimes pulling down the whole tree.   Huge ones have fallen since i've been here.  There are still MANY.  I've told before how their pinecones are the size of pineapples.  Full of pine nuts but like iron to break open.  Unless you are a squirrel.  This is looking up from where i stand at Sunny Ray and Jack Flash's gate every morning and evening after feeding…catching my breath.   The branches of one tree weave into another and on and on.

 

Here the branches of the Pine at the edge of the road up extends across that road and touches branches of the Oaks that are primary on the other side.  Branch to branch.  The canopy.  the Overstory.

the second year here there were two squirrels all luxurious and grey coated with lush flashy tails.    Didn't see them often but enough to know they were there.  the third year,  saw them less.   This circle around there seems to be only One young one?  Almost every day i see him sailing through the branches…running like lightning and leaping branch to branch running again.  He can travel the entire acres here that way and does.  

Tay is only a little interested.  If they,  or now he,  is over by the truck,  in the collection of stuff there,  she will bark but not wholeheartedly.  She gets it that it's futile.  I don't think Puppy could hunt one.  They are too fast and too skilled at climbing to be hunted.   Hawks maybe?   But i have never seen any indication of that…fur and bone.    So he is a much loved Mystery.

 i watch him and send up messages of Hope that he will find a partner here.  His aerobatiics are a Joy.  Every day.

 

 

Bert Willaert,  Belgium   photographer

 

there has been such a wonder Full response to these Invocation Cloths….so Very gratifying ….Why?   Because they are giving me a way to be my most honest and genuine self.   A way to stitch my best truth.  To BE my best truth.  

i woke this morning…this one was among those to Let Go of  but i couldn't.   it is not ,  uhhhh,  "pretty"  in its form or composition but it has a strong Voice that is so clear.   I don't give them words or story of my own but try to stay in their  world as i  work,  leaving all that to the exchange between the Cloth and the receiver.  
This one  though,  has always been about the Mycelium.   "the vegetable part of fungus colony consisting of a mass of branching thread like hyphae.   Mycelia are vital in terrestrial and aquatic ecosystems for their role in the decomposition of plant materials.  They contribute to the organic fraction of soil and their growth releases carbon dioxide back into the atmosphere"  Wikipedia 

so,  this one stays here to help me learn to TRUST cloth.  To trust the partnership.

it rained all night and then all day.   late afternoon there was HUGE THUNDER over and over and then HAIL that covered the earth like snow.  Goats all dismayed….rushing out of Shelter in desperation but then immediate return.    One of those days.  Which we still so desperately need for hope in the Dry Time.   Tomorrow 10 degrees warmer.  I go to Alyssia's to do laundry while she goes off to get her first vaccination…this being the first week they have opened to those with chronic illness.  I am afraid for her,  but somehow,  this Mycelium Cloth says…Trust.  For this too.   Ok.

 

 

i want to keep going with these.  It's very different making than  all before.   I want to keep trying to give words to that so i can learn something.   Cloth here,  with these,  is not cloth FOR    me    to create with.   Is more something about partnership.  With cloth ItsSelf  taking the lead,  teaching.   I want to keep  some of the first ones.

 

but not all.    In order to continue,  i have to let some go.  Being on the brink of a move to WordPress and this being an intense time with the Gardens,  i don't want to take the time necessary to struggle through putting them in the  SHOP .   So for now,   I'll just put them  here,  now and then.

they are approx.  4 1/2 "  X  7     Would come in Craft Paper Cards with an unfinished drawing.   Each is $28     If anyone is interested,  you can Email me.